Wednesday, April 19, 2006
A cycle...
"In the end,
everything turned out like how it was supposed to be..."
I had started this blog with the intend to blurt out all my inner feelings. All those unsaid words, the mixed emotions nobody ever knew about. What i have learned from this blogging experience so far, is that peoples opinion of me have been true.
I am not the person i thought i was in all their eyes. I still am unable to relate to many things that cloud, that choke up & those tiny lil things that juz amaze us in our brains. I really truly understand what she once told me =( that I really must learn to be more expressive. Well I hope I have started at least, cause these are the rantlings of a broken down man. A man who has lost love because of his stupidity & his blind heart. This is also the man that has...
*unspoken words that are choked up*On a lighter note, i did not completely rot in bed the whole day on 17th.
Instead i rotted at home for the whole of 18th...ha!
I had mixed feelings the afternoon of 17th when my old man told me that we would possibly not be having family dinner. THE DINNER I OFFERED TO PAY. The silly old excuse that the car was at the workshop *duH* So in i went back into my room sulking, really2 thinking that i would be rotting.
After maghrib though, a convoy of 3 bikes headed to Chai Chee restaurant. *a small smurk*
The oldies chose to ride the CBR150. My 1st sister happily rode my -ex- "diana". And me..of course I was on my "Rose no2." with the happy last sister being only the 3rd person i pillioned. It was ok la..the meal & everything. It made me eat. The first time in 3 weeks, since the depression, that i had 2 meals in a day. Imagine that, 2nd meal in a day - the first time in 3 weeks. woah! I had really lost weight =(
Back home, I was waiting & waiting...and even more waiting. The seconds ticked till the minutes. The minutes became quarters, to the halves and finally the hours. It was 3 more hours to the end and yet =(
that wish had yet to come. =(
The lepak boyz were meeting up, thanx to mr.teacher, our dear organiser constantly. Of course I had to remind him that it was my birthday before the meet up was confirmed. *quiet laugh*
The same familiar faces, as always. Mr.Teacher, SGT hotstuff, the bouncer, badboy sardine & of course me. mat China & abg chindian wasn't there, but had met them last friday...so it was okay. The old laughs, the jokes, it was all there again...all so familiar. Something somehow cropped up. Something different this time, it started as always with which of us guys would finally tie the know...haha ( i can imagine my miss. secretary laughing at reading this) but the it started to lead to
"Oh we gotta save money now",
"When will we have children",
"Must start saving now",
and the likes & so on. Strangely enough $$ was now an issue. Maybe hey its my fault since i blurted out the fact I already had 25K in my account ;P ..so the guys maybe were really starting to think about how much weddings cost nowadays.
Did u know,
u can get a budget malay wedding for around 10K. That is if you guys are lucky to get a future mum-in-law that agrees to hantaran 5K which so so so rare nowadays. hah. Well thats just a sneak to the Lepak Boyz. Good since 95 ;) or should i say 98 ? since that was the year most of us bonded & gel'd and the good old name pop up. Remember still our theme song from Offspring ?
God, that was so long ago...
Hey! Hey! As I'm writing this, a happy package just drop in, literaly into the office.
My new handphone... *forces a smile*
But Im sure you guys won't be intrested in this piece of news =P
when darkness turns to light @ 5:10 am
