it ends tonight,

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

1 month 1 day

My mind is finally settling abit. Yah, theres still much to be done. In fact alot more to be done. I think I'll just go along with the flow. Be who I am, I think. Happy go lucky & no worries. Thats what I've been all along, why should I change it right ?

All the problems, I'll just cast aside temporarily. Let it be, let it all haunt me later in my life. For now I want to TRY to live life to the fullest. Theres just to much, or rather to to little to sacrifice for especially when it doesn't matter to the people whom you care about.

I am definietly getting clearer & brighter signs. I have to move on. Let it all be left behind. Its okay...I think. For now, its just not worth it. Maybe the coming age of this blog has made me think. I have re-read most of my entries countless times and when it hit me that its been a month already, GOSH! Almost all the entries are sad. =(

So thats it, I definietly am going to move on in my life. I'll still complain. I'll still be sad, no doubt. What I'll try is to be stronger for the people around me. Most importantly for myself. I have to be stronger. I will still keep you updated, I still want you to know whats happening in my life. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I still want you. I really do hope you still stay in contact.

Theres still the promise to be kept.

when darkness turns to light @ 4:58 am