Wednesday, May 03, 2006
31 days 31 nights
...& let the creative juices out.
"...what's there to live for ?? You've been through a major accident that almost killed you and returned. You saw death in front of you. What more do you want..."Its funny how there are just some things that can be in front of us, yet we dont' see it. Bak pepatah kekata melayu, "Kuman seberang laut nampak, Gajah depan mata tak nampak." OK, maybe I'm not taking a very good example in a proverb. Forgive me yar. My malay's not that good =p
Its just strange how I feel.People keep telling me how they see that I'm muich stronger then this. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. Nor am I whining, I'm just looking back & reflecting. Change is good. The transistion though is a very surpassable task thats very very blur.
Oh FYI, I dont't normally read my emails at msn. Please do email me through singnet. I'll put up the link soon. I opened up my msn mail this morning, & saw a mail dated 27th April. From a very unexpected person. It was a tale of 2 eggs, how 1 wished to just stay & be an oyster. Let its environment decide its fate. The other, wanted to be an eagle, wanting to shape its own fate. Wanting no limits up in the sky. I'm quite afray with these type of stories, thank you ;) but what touched my heart were the personal message afterwards. Thanx dear. You really moved me. I like the last word especially =p
hah notty cheeky me!
Had the whole long holiday weekend off. Spent it all going out. Forgot what its like to have a carefree life. I just made sure I spent it outside. How I wish though I had just rotted at home.
All the advises people give, even her, asking me to spend time outside...to 'so call' get my mind of things. Keep me busy. Yah I was busy. Was still busy always deep in thoughts. Everywhere I went I saw traces of my history. I saw people happy. I saw couples, specifically. All happy & spending time together. I was distraught at all da sights.
Yet I just kept busy. Cause i wanted to resist all major urges that I had. It was the mystery dates. Today marks the end of the mystery dates. It was sometime earlier in the day, 4 weeks ago since I was told. Its been that long.
Its been 1 month since...Happy 1 month you...
when darkness turns to light @ 2:24 pm
