Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Crossroad
Crossroads. We all have had crossroads. All would have appeared before them & crossed the junction making the inevitable decisions that cannot be undone.For many crossroads are a rather troublesome dilemma. A choice of wanting rather then needs. Classic example come forth in the display of the country's recent polls. It was a known fact that we citizens wanted an opposition more then a need to. Of course, to a certain extent we do need opposition. But the wants were bigger. You could here it almost everywhere, "...I dont mind an opposition...a GRC even but let it not be my GRC..." Now how many of us has had that thought or heard it from someone elses mouth. Point in case. Ta-Dah!!
Crossroads to the broken heart are the most classics of renditions. You can take it out, batter them, mix it with flour, add the correct amount of eggs, sugar, icing & bake it nicely according to the chef's instruction. Somehow or rather its just no surprise that the cake wont turn up nicely in a classic brokenheart crossroad.Lets take a scenario that everyone can relate to. Boy meets Girl. Boy Loves Girl. Girl also loves Boy. Boy's parents dont like Girl's parents. Girl's parents dont like Boy's parents. U get the idea uh ? When the ultimate choice is to be made, more than 90% of chance, both will be heartbroken and going along the classic tale of romeo & juliet, the crossroads encounters a dead end - literally.Screenshot back to present, to me more specifically. My crossroads is slowly starting to unravel becoming clearer & clearer. Brighter even, if I do say so myself. There are choices now on display, definietly. Its still a blur, but the fog & mist is clearing up revealing the well beaten tracks as well as the untested paths. Its a different view from that of early April. Still very blur though. Too early to tell if this is false dawn.So where do I go from here. I feel I'm playing a very dangerous game. A game which yet again I would be at the shorter end of the stick. Yet i still roll the dice & try my luck. Passing the time some say but is it really. I could get burnt & be hurt in many ways worst then I am now. Not forgetting tis already a very bad situation.Again point to note, which road do I take. Do I rev up my accelerator now & go straight with this racer instinct ? If so...do I become a track racer or dirt bike racer ? 1 is a proven & well beaten path. You can even see the race lines if you've been in this situation a few times, like me. Or I could try off road biking. Taking the unproven & muddy track. Falling occasionally, stalling too...may even need a mechanic here & there but will gain from the experience as its going somewhere I've never been & I've never really thought of going.Theres still option C. Wait it out more. Let the dust settle properly. Let it really really settle. Wait...wait now the TP says. Wait...till you're absolutely sure that the light is green to go & make a choice. Damn it theres even people horning behind you for you to make your move. Taking up to much space in this world they say.I cant possibly forget my first touchy part about today. Wants VS Needs. Retrospect of a crossroad. Do I need to move on, or plain simply I just want to move on. The feeling of loneliness has crept in. It doesnt help with all the screenshots of down-under :( So is it a need ? Really really doubt it, cause theres still a promise to be fulfilled. Its certainly more of a want now, especially with the choices that is on a platter...I think! Skali the plate was not meant to be mine.
*BLUEAGH*
After going in circles, it still is about the same thing. Crossroad...be daring to make a choice now ? or...be a chicken thats surely safe and wait. Whats all your take. The scenario being like mine....Whats say you?
when darkness turns to light @ 3:09 pm
