Thursday, May 11, 2006
not what they seem
Nuetral is the key word today.
Life is definietly not what it seems to be. Its not that difficult but it ain't easy either. This has made me have numerous debates & arguements in my small little space called the brain.
I have been 2 extremes lately. Someone pointed out why bother. Don't go trying to please everyone and act as if you're damn happy, all hyper & stuff;- it also leads to excessive spending btw. Don't go being ever sulky either, it brings darkness around you.
"...just be nuetral..."I ve been trying all my life, to understand myself & this thing called life. Recently I found out. 1 can never find out what life is all about. 1 can only live what life is all about. Intresting thought eiy. I had been leading my life trying to please many many people. In doing so, I have misinterpreted, misunderstood, miscommunicated & all the other mis-matches because plain simply I have not been doing what I want. I think, period.
And so I felt so tired, and yet again felt so dissapointment by this recent episode of my life. That suddenly changed me, turned me around rather abruptly & just like that I dropped everything & was the exact opposite.
I was another extreme, being pitiful for myself, feeling sad & all yg sewaktu dengan nya. K that sounds wrong. Ha! i thought I had found the new me only for me to feel more tired then before. And so I almost gave up...many times in fact.
"...just be nuetral..."So Neutral me it shall be. Nuetral RIDAK. heh.
"...just be nuetral..."Theres 1 thing I'd like to share to someone. Don't go looking for the person that completes you. For the person that completes you does not exist. Only you complete you. Find the one that complements you.
...for you were the one that complemented me...
when darkness turns to light @ 9:29 pm
