Tuesday, May 16, 2006
& off he goes...
I've finally come to a point where I think enough is enough! I've just about had it up to here
*hands swinging wildly in front of forehead* I've had it with the countless number of people telling me I am THIN!!! THIN they say...can't they see I'm developing my 'muscles' hwahwahwa.
I'd be the first to admit honestly, yesh I have lost weight. I do not think though that I am thin. I really do like the way that I'm shaping up right now. I could do with a lil meat here & there, lose a few more inches from the things & butt. Other than that, I'm content. Haha. Maybe its just down to my excercise regime.
Its amazing that when you finally set out to get something done, & I really mean setting out...the results really show. Okay, the lost of appetite I didnt want of course, I couldn't help it but hey Ive been stalling on excercising & getting my body back to shape. The loss of apetite was just the initial catalyst. Now that I've lost a lil weight & started to tone my body again, I can start to eat properly again. That & of course because I'm sick of people telling me I'm thin. I'll get those muscles you'll see. Heh.
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Once the ball starts rolling...I'm feeling better, thank you. With the maturing of my blog, I have alot to be grateful to.
I used to be this boiling, overflowing kettle that just lets out lots & lots of steam & water. Now, I'm more reserved. The blog has helped me alot. For 1, I think it has accelerated my emotional healing. Letting it all out really does help. Gosh why didn't I understand this earlier in my life. Of course, the blog alone was not enough. Its a major factor though. It really has helped shaped my thinking this past few weeks.
Thank you blog.
I am going to
TRY to eat normally again. Today was good. Dinner yesterday, breakfast this morning. Makan appointment later at 5 followed by supper surely ard 9+ , I think. Heh well we will see how my life goes along.
You wish me luck k.
This is a small, yet
HUGE step that I'm taking. Now everyone hold on to your breath...
