Friday, May 05, 2006
Quiksilver
I came home this morning to be greeted by stacks of folded cardboard boxes, all neat & ready. It was a sign that moving house is near.
Its funny how everythings is very much interlinked constantly. Just very very recently, I had opened up a a new OUB account. With it came a few new cards. This made my wallet evergrowing & everbulging. Let me say the stoy about my wallet.
...my wallet was a gift on my 22nd brthday. I still do have the original box, the card that came with it. Even the carrier that was given with. Everything I had kept cause everything was special. This wallet by quiksilver is very unique. It came in 2 parts, a fat 1 and a slim 1. The slim end was like a very thin wallet that could be inserted nicely into the 'housing' of the mother wallet. This worked perfectly fine, until my wallet contents began to grew. I ended up just tagging along the slim end. It was much nicer & looked professional as well.
A few months back, the inevitable happened. The slim end started to show signs of wear. Maybe it was because too many things had been kept in it. A small tear had started to develop at the ends of where the cards were kept. Painstakingly & sadly, I transfered all the important contents to the fat end. Nothing much was new. Just the placement of the cards & more space, heh. Flash back to a few days ago, when card repositioning came in place. I literally took out everything, while at work no less, & sorted my mini life.
Out it popped, like a well place china in a house. There, the remains of what were us, laid. My mind quickly went into trance, to a question she had asked not quite long ago.
"Is my picture still in your wallet?" & there without fail for love was the answer. Many months back when I was with the slim end, she had opened up the wallet to not find her picture. That of course prompted the question some time back. You see, I had carefully transfered the pictures to a safe place, not wanting it to age with the rest of the wallet and forgetting to tell her. Now that I was using the fat end, I was pleasently reminded of the past
...I am now at a junction. A very painful yet important junction that I am forced to take. I have to move on. Everyone around has been great, pushing me along, tagging me, making sure I was at least having my chin up. All the memories though still stood rooted deep inside of me.
I had the greatest of urges to tell her the moment I saw she came online. Our conversations though these days are very short, brief & concise. No surprises there :( Made it difficult telling hher things that have happened in my life.The feelings now just ain't the same? I have mellowed perhaps? I still do want her.
Perhaps she will read this. I do not know. Whatever it is, I just am glad that no matter what we are now...you still are somehow in my life.
...And with that I tucked the pictures neatly backed into the wallet
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