Sunday, May 21, 2006
Tosses & turns
Life's swirling funnily. Its just when I thought I had gotten up on my 2 feet. Its really strange.
My mum has been rubbing the salt deeper into the wound, as always. As a reminder that I have to move on. Cause even though the salt is just going inflict to further pain, its going to help the wound heal much2 faster. She always does this you know. Its not that I hate it, I just hate the pain it causes. But I know she loves me thats why she wants me to move on. Ha, shes finally stopped with the marriage teasing for a while since she knows I'm single.
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Initially,
it seemed that I was your rebound & you were mine. It was a blissful & perfect harmony. perfectly no strings. Then funnily the rebound had no more bounce(which isn't actually surprising). It instead became springingly connected. You were there for me & I was there for you. Another perfect harmony. As weird as it got, you professed I wasn't the rebound & that our chemistry could go along way. I knew I would face dissapointment, yet the butterflies came back rushing rather eagerly into the stomach. It was too fast too soon, definietly. Chemisty was there but...
I knew you were not the rebound, cause the rebound already came and bounced off. So what do I do?
It took a wicked turn, all the bouncing and there I was left stranded again, wondering
what ifI do like the way you're calling me,
"Dir oh Dir"------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
My confidance is at a low. Don't ask me why. Think I'm done with asking people, or rather girls, out for dates no more. Its just going to slump my confidance lower & I don't need that now.
I have said it once. I'm going to say it again. I owe a lot to this blog. This is certainly a blessing in disguise. If I had lost my hp & contacts last time, it would have probably meant total loss. With this blog wow surprise people sms me now asking if I have their contact. Good uh ?
Blog oh Blog,
Di manakah hendak ku carik ganti seperti mu?
Sebagaimana engkau telah menyinari hidup lalu ku yang membenam.
Blog oh Blog,
Kemana la aku hendak menuju jika engkau tiada disisi?
Bagaimana boleh ku tutur jalan yang lurus sedangkan lorong yang membelit.
Blog oh Blog,
Tidak sedunia ku pinta kecuali kefahaman seorang insan
Keinginan hanya pemberian semurah ikhlas dan semahal segenggam hati.
Hanya mu Blog oh Blog.
21 May 2006
when darkness turns to light @ 1:32 am
