Thursday, June 22, 2006
excerpts from his book of life
He was all covered in cuts and bruises. Sitting by the boxes reeling still from the hurts and injuries from the past. From the ashes of what was, he thought nothing more could ever be worse. He had tried to pick himself up. Yesh he did. He was constantly showing people his broad and not-so-shiny smile. He presented himself in such a clear and defined way, some would even had thought he was okay. Truth though almost everyone saw through him. The jaded him, so different and so so vastly uncomparable to his best. Hair all messed and ruffled up. Shirt unbuttoned with dirt marks all over his collar and cuffs, not to mention the neat way it was untucked. Yes this was him. Trying to recover from the past. Nothing more could be worse.
And so he thought.
She had been a rejuvenated person eversince. She had back her megawatt smile that shines and lit up every dark alley she was in. Yet with her new self and new life, she was willing to let go of it all, so so easily. At least thats from his point of view.
He had done the damage. He had initiated the brake up. And it was also he who just wanted to remain as friends. It was rather ironic that it was he who was pleading her to come back. Pleading with both kness set to the ground to accept him back. She though, after suffering from his ignorance for many months just looked away. With a small drop of tear she turned her head in ignorance and looked forward, only.
That had done the damage. That had hurt him more then his fractured bones or his torn muscles. That he thought was the worst. A small light was visible then, for they had agreed to remain friends when she moved on. She said she still had a soft spot for him. That was the only encouraging bubble of thought that accompanied his sleep since.
The closing of their online portal was expected. She had mentioned and whispered of it. He understood though very much devastated. He tried to put himself in the other guy's shoes. So as much as he didnt want to, he just swallowed it all in one single gulp.
As all the boxes still laid around strewn with memoirs of their past, he just thought to himself it could be no worse. With a click of a mouse, everthing changed.
Similar to a thief, all so quiet and careful. Something came up behind him. Something so hurtful and so so un-thought of. There a knife so sharp was weilded. It was hanged high above him. He didnt notice a thing through out, no suspicion of any kind. Now he was sure, she must have at least been delayed for a split second. Hesitant in the moment of truth.
It was done. So swift and agile. The knife all 25 cm long if it was pierced right through his back. It went in as much as as it went through. It pierced all of his heart. For it really happened. It really really happened. He turned around and was surprise it really had happened. Never in his wildest imagination, this scenario would happen.
The sharpness had caused too much damage and hurt. He just lay there as the blood of emotions spilled all over his room of blue. The colours mixed as the red and blue became purple. Fazed by all the stir in his brain and the pain from it all, he just dropped into a moment...
He had been taken out of her life, and it seems like its for good. For he will never know. Not at least for another 6 months. He still had not recovered fully from the previous battle scars and now new wounds are added. This is truly the death of his desire.
when darkness turns to light @ 5:09 pm
