Monday, June 19, 2006
House warming
Something that my sister said meant alot to me & it went something like...
"We all have lived in Bedok Reservoir for donkey years & we did it a grave injustice by not having any wedding reception at that block."Yah. Funnily I truly agreed with what she said. Its somehow funnily true how the type of attachment I have with that house, that leads me to think and agree with what my sister said. So maybe the atmosphere of my house warming covered it all up.
A friend that came asked me, "Ko tunang ke ?"
Right, just because the house was nicely done up. Just because there was tables of food, just because there were many people. Haha. Oh well it was a warm & fuzzy feeling. A good one to start in Tampines. Definietly though, it wasnt to celebrate my engagement. I mean like...who wants me =
She
did. Let me spell that out again.
D - I - D.
With the recent wedding of my cousin Nana, and the atmosphere of my house warming, all my relatives were again asking me when was my turn. According to the hierachy on both parents side, it was to be our turn. The other cousins were either too young or they already had other plans. So its up to me & my sisters.
The same old questions. "Gf ko tak datang ?"
"Mana matair ko?"
And of course...about her as well...
"Mana dak australia tu ?"
Oh especially with me still being dumb to display pics of her on top of my drawer,
"Bila dia balik?"
Same ol' same ol'
I dont see where all this is heading. Its one big rush of frivent emotions. I keep telling myself that Im stupid. That I'm still not over her, trying to be strong. Trying to be tough, trying to maintain the smile. Yet with each person that I showed my room to, she will almost always remain a topic.
I truly am being silly.
Well all that has ended already today. Damn tired but there is a certain sense of accomplishment. Not sure though what I accomplished, maybe its what my parents had wanted, what I had felt. Unsure, just unsure.
I truly would like to thank my dear friends who made the long2 trip to Tampines. Really appriciate you guys coming down. Thanx for the wonderful gifts too. You people just made me accept those gifts ;) hehe. I'd like to apologise if I wasnt a good enough host, running around all over. Heh still being the family driver, driving people around & fetching stuff here & there. Thanx my dear friends.
Of course there were a few who didnt turn up. Really had wanted their presence. Maybe somethings just werent meant to be. Definietly not in my control.
Its now 2am. Just saw Brazil finished off an unlucky Aussie side. Thats football. The ball is round. Thats life too...the cycle will repeat. Let it reach the good parts quick, oh please.
*intense blood and aura running through my bodily hair*=/
when darkness turns to light @ 2:02 am
