it ends tonight,

Monday, June 19, 2006

I really want to.

when you move forward, when you least expect it, something just whams you back into the past.

I know definietly that I'm not over her. Thats certain for sure. But I had thought that I had been up and alive in recent weeks. It made me say that I was already out of depression. Strange man! It really is. When I least expected it. Mind blowing things just blast me back into my douldroums of the past, back into the depression. I think.

I'm not sure if I had been totally out of depression in the first place. Now every little thing seems to affect me alot. All those small little emotional things just hit me hard. I havent even started about trying to adapt to the new house. Urgh.

I really do want to move forward. I really do want to.

I want to go out tonight but got no companion. This is sucky being stuck at home on a off day. Bleargh. Real sucky. I wana go out tonight. Someone please beep me.

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when darkness turns to light @ 9:32 pm