Friday, June 09, 2006
Life values
Life has a very funy way of teaching us all values.
They say patience is virtue. They say patience teaches a man many things. I believe in all these things for I had at one point of time been very2 patient in my life.
I would get compliments, and they came a plenty. All telling me the wonders on how patient I was. If I'm not mistaken, there are a few testimonials to vouch for this virtue of mine in the wonderful world of friendster. Heh =p
With all this compliment going around of me being patient, think the surroundings and environment got up to me head. I slowly but surely began to lose my cool at a certain point of my life. I was begining to became very2 impatient. This was especially so amongst people that I cared for, none more so than to her. This is something that I have realised. Yes I do realise it. I apologise to you, for having such a short fuse. In the 2 years that our love blossomed, it was no doubt that my patience for small little irritance grew thinner and thinner.
It was like I couldn't stand it. I would easily pout and vent my frustration on things that I didn't like you doing. & this was coming from a guy, me. Someone who was so called patient!!
Time passes by and all things will eventually return full circle.
Thats why I have started with saying how funny life teaches us this virtue called patience.
Circumstances in life would teach us many2 things. There are many things in life now that I'm going through which is so easily making me frustrated or angry. But what's the use right of having a short fuse. I believe I am not a very temperemental person. Therefore lucky for the people around me. Ha.
This situations, especially with the women I meet now in my life is teaching me this thing called patience again. I truly believe that. I really am able to look at the sadness in a far sighted point of view again. To be optimistic, and be happy go lucky again. Its all coming back again, slowly but surely.
I may not be the most 'patient' person in the whole world, but 1 things for sure, I am learning, re-learning this value again. This wonderful virtue thats so important in life. I am re-learning it all over again.
How I'd realise this ? It all boils down to the lady & gentleman this morning. When an apparent 'boyfriend' comes to see the 'ex girlfriend' dating again(of course I'm so called 'dating' that girl). I ended up with the shorter end of the stick and I wasn't even in the fault. Thingking of such perplex situations can easily make a person go nuts already but 1 things for sure, I think I handled such complexity this morning in my own stride.
Eons ago, in my past 2 relationships, such things that had happened, would have easily made me blow my air out on that particular lady. I am sorry, for that part I am very guilty. No doubt I was not light handed, but to women words meant much more, right ??
And so I just quietly took my leave in all the chaotic banter that I experienced. It really is so lucky that I am not very expressive. Ha. Oh well.
It truly is teaching me patience. Life is making sure that I dont lose this virtue that I once had, and this time I'm telling myself that I would make sure I dont lose it again. Patience really is a virtue and I want that to be a part of me.
So that sums up patience. Heh. Just 1 thing that I've wanted to touch on but havent really had the chance to so. Any way my computer is going to the boxes soon. I am thinking that this could be my last ever post from bedok reservoir. Schuks, and I don't even have pictures for this post of my wonderful home of 21 years =(
So if this really is my last post from bedok, let this be my wonderful parting note. Something thats going to open up my life when I am in Tampines, heh. I read it just now and its quoted from Rocker Richie Sambora,
"Tell my female fans I'm single and ready to party"Hahaha.... thanx dear bedok reservoir for all the wonderful memories and in true rocker jiwang fashion... Terima Kaseh!!
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