Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Of rememberance
I am remembering something.My room now seems very2 clean & neat. All the things are nicely pack and looks damn presentable. Apa tak, the house warming was just last sunday, so it was spruced up. Much of it was done by my mum. She just unpack and unpack and unpack. Why her...? cause her son keeps picking up objects and reminiscing.
It would take me forever to truly clean my room up. There are seriuously a few things I have totally forgotten about altogether. I found a birthday present for my 19th. It was a shake-er ball thingey with glitters for insides and something nice as well. Normally these crystal balls would have mini landmark or such. And you can shake the ball and see the wonderful glow it gives. Mine though was special.
This crystal ball of mine had as the center piece my picture. All done up by one of my closest girl friend ever. It was really nice and special to look at. Especially since she had chosen a really good looking photo of me
*gasp* haha. Theres a small tinge of sadness though. Through the years, the liquid from the ball has started to leak out, and whats left is just the glitter and photo inside. Its still nice to look at though. Thanx mamar.
Then theres a watch.
A gift from
her. Can't remember if it was any occasion, think it was just a random gift. Something she found nice. And it was nice. I wore it always back then, until my accident. Truly and sincerely I say that when I was conscious that night, I remember feeling pain. Not just from the physical aspect but emotional as well cause the impact to my body had damaged the watch's strap and it was in pieces. Yet I still kept it. And during all the house moving and all, my dad found that watch. The dear old man took the pains to find a watch genius to mend the watch. Ok the strap was not metallic any more but the whole thing still looked nice and presentable. And when he presented it back to me yesterday I was totally speechless. I really don't know if I am to wear it.
Oh theres also a special head mask.
Think whoever went into my room would surely have seen it the other day. That mask goes all the way back to 98. I still keep such things. When someone asked me the other day why I had it, since I wasnt in any special ops force during NS, I choked for a while thinking how I had that. It was for a glorious presentation back in my Dunman days. Wonder if any of the other guys still have theirs. Talking about Dunman days, I also found my Guard of Honour pic of 98. Ah the glory days. Those were my chubby and kental days looking fugging horrible. Its no wonder no girl ever wanted me. Ha.
You see I could go on and on about the things I have found. It will only make me smile and smile yet I will never move forward. I will forever be stuck in the past.
Is that any good ?
There are some things that I have been searching for since my room was renovated abruptly in 2002 that are still missing. There are a few pictures which I cherish alot. A certain time frame in my life which I would describe as 1 of my most colourful. I said it back then & I still agree that when it comes to schooling memories I love the time from my O's prelims all the way to the last days waiting for my results in Outram Inst. That was such an eye opener in my life.The wonderful people and the vibrant colours they added to my life sticks to me till today. 1 of the ways that makes me love that period was the number of pictures I had. Alot, seriuosly. Alas I am missing all those pics. Where oh Where can they be. Anyway ms.secretary our infamous pics from beside the library is sadly missing. So is the fast game with cicako. And not to mention the groupies of OI =(
with all these rememberances, today I remember something else...
I remember how I tried to cope with depression back a few months ago. Today something sparked it again. I should keep up what I did today. Question is, can I though ??
After supper with Oji yesterday and chatting with her somemore later that night, I only found myself in Lala land during dawn. Yet rest eluded me. As early as 9 am my parents just had to wake me up to switch the circuit breaker on. And there pagi2 shouting match was in place. Sorry mum, but you just dont want to admit when you're wrong. Guess thats where I got it from. :P How could they not trust what I said with regards to electronic circuitry. I had to really show it to them, that I was spot-on, and yet I was still in the one to be blamed and scolded. Bleargh.
Thats not the story anyway.
Soon after when trying to find the
Z monster again, 1 of my former padawans called. He asked if I could cover despatch for sumone. And the lines were traced back all the way to an acquaintance from SP. She was my youngest sister's senior at Cedar and I had gate crashed at her chalet once. So when she asked for help, I just obliged. Oh shes a recruitment consultant. So I reported for despatch duty at Alexandra by noon. This of course was after making sure I tightened my bike handling. Imagine a screw had gone missing. The mechanic asked what silly stunts I had done since I had powerful Brembo brake pump. Haha.
The day was just busy, out sending parcels and collecting un-necessary packages for Sato Asia Pacific ;P Cool place though. Wouldn't mind working there if there are other openings. Not despatch la, though on a part time basis ok what. So what if its only a meagre sum.
The thing that I want to say is, the time passed so fast and made me so tired that I couldnt think about anything except just on whats going on. Its like kinda the period when I worked 29 days straight night shift. Now that theres off days, its not possible anymore. So I remember...
Yeah thats the rememberance of today. I got to make sure I am busy so busy that I'll drop flat out whenever I meet my bed. All of it is irony though when I can be free like this at work sometimes. Haha. Oh ms.secretary since when have you adapted the,
"dir oh dir" and I wont forget, definietly. You're helping alot already. You'll get the things from me A.S.A.P. Thanks ;)
So if anybody wants any work, temporary or anything, look for me. I'd get through to Shasha the recruitment consultant, who would definietly be eager to fill up those empty positions.
Wise guy! Nak kerja despatch ak ?
K I am sidetracking so far of. Ha.
Yet I still remember...
I remember what made me strong abit. Just got to keep myself busy. Busy as a bee. Just got to work my ass off. So what if I keep earning money and no one to spend on. I'll find some one, it may not be now, but I'm sure I will.
And it still could be her.Kalau jodoh tak ke mana.
