Monday, July 17, 2006
Paths
Darn, this always happens to me
=(Bleargh! I am always hit by such stuff. Stuff that you thought only happened on the silver screen. I have my own screen though thats viewed by a select few, lucky individuals you. Hehe.
Bleagh! Thats me la. Always trynig to laugh it all off. Trying to avoid it all away. Not trying to display the sadness, the uh so real sadness. This is so apt since its following yesterdays shrink session. Ah, guys will always be guys for we always want to avoid and run away from real problems. We shall all laugh it off right about ...now!
Haha
*sobs* Haha
:(All this is of course sparked by something. By a person, an individual related to her no less. And I so thought that I could move on. I am so damn wrong.
I was at the bike shop behind ITE Tampines. Was actually quite chirpy just now. Just viewed my ferrings. Oh they look fine, mighty sweet. All thats left is for the colour to be sprayed on and it would fit nicely back on Rose no2. Leaving that strech of road, that small small road, I saw someone at the sidewalk. He was walking towards ITE Tampines. He was so so familiar that I took a 2nd look while riding.
It was...
It was her brother. Her younger brother who is studying there was walking on the sidewalk. My look obviously caught his attention and he actually recognised me. Her brother still recognised me. We have spoken like ermm no more than the words on this post, yet he was able to recognise. Me with my helmet, on my bike that he has not seen before. And that kind dude even raised his arm at me signalling a hi none the less.
- Big Sigh of I dont know what -She has been like totally out of sight for the past 2 months and now when I so thought that I could move on, I see her brother. This is just igniting the fuels that burn so deep inside of me. With the rain that just poured, my emotions is flowing the same way. That is why I just got to post this up. For I would be in a worst situation if Im not freely expressing myself, much.
Who would understand truly what I am going through...Am I taking the correct path...for it always seem to cross the path that I
should forget.
when darkness turns to light @ 1:11 pm
