Sunday, August 13, 2006
Being shy
Bah!! I technically started the day by being such a scary cat. I am so so much worst off then before. My oh my since when have I really been sooooooooooooooooooooooo shy.
I've had this phrases being told me more than once already in these couple of weeks. Its about me being shy. My friends, old and new, would go like, "you, shy ?" and they shake their heads in disbelief. Or for some, nudge me in disbelief,msn style, or any other emotioncon for that fact.
So what is it actually ? That character of me which I know I have for a long time already is written off by people who know me. They just cant seem to believe that
THIS person who can shout out aloud in the middle of a packed road is actually like a mice when it comes to the opposite sex. Dont get me wrong. I can be loud too when I know the opposite sex already. But when I have never formally uttered a full sentence to them, I just go choke on my words.
This morning is a classic example. That girl has been sitting at the production line 15 for so long already. I have noticed her for so long already. I have stolen 1 too many glances whenever I'm in the prodution area. She too it seems have stolen glances at me. Haha.
When its being taken to the test, when all comes down to boiling temperature, when the oppurtunity is there wide open for me to score, I never seem to fail to falter. Yeah she was just walking in front of me as we headed out after work. She was right there in front of me, even turned her head to look at me, and I couldnt even muster up the courage to say Hi. I choked
BIG TIME.
That incident must have been at the peak of the crest of a wave. After many2 smiles to each other, the real oppurtunity to speak to her really came. Of course you know already I faltered.
And I thought I was going to have a whale of a time. I am not even sure if I want to continue with the rest of the plans. I just want to remain hidden where I've always been, locked up in my room on my bed under the pillows. Just plain old shy me for once. Just sleep or rather
ROT the day away...
Oh Adibah who is living with her in laws in the apratment right above me, saw me the other day, and called me an 'anak dara yang duduk rumah je.' Hah. Aint that interesting ?
when darkness turns to light @ 7:17 am
