Tuesday, August 01, 2006
how vision affects your thoughts
"...I still think about youI still dream about youI still want you...& need you by my side..."Well what can I say right
=(I've found out that when its all still and quiet, it will hit me hard. The surroundings plays a big part in this quest to move on. Well I think I've found, or rather remembered a piece of solace.
There was a time in May when, though my mind did wander in negativity and sadness, I was actually quite emotionally stable. It was a big part due to how I saw things. Back then, I was always inter changing & switching different girls picture as my main handphone screensaver. Primarily I was always using guardian angel's and ms.hourglass' picture. That was actually a form of solace, really. I cant explain it.
Cause in late June I had put my own face as the screensaver. A big reason is of course my mum yacking at me at how I shouldnt put girls pic if they aren't my gf. So there...I was always looking at a single me on my handphone. Its psychological la actually...
So the other day, due to a missing feeling, I just switched to miss. hourglass' pic. Of course, mum saw it and kept questioning me. I think that feeling is a lil numb already. Kinda no feeling abit when mum talks abt marriage & stuffs. But it hit backs after some time of course.
Anyway the past few days just by looking at the 'couple' photo is a psychological win. She may just be a friend but it works wonders how shes helping me from afar. Cause everytime I touch my handphone to use it, I smile. And a smile helps in the long run to combat any emotional turmoil.
So for now, I will still have her pic. Maybe I'll rotate it with her other pics. Maybe I'll meet her so I can get more pics. haha. Or maybe I'll just switch to some other 'couple' photo of mine so that I can take my mind of my so called problem.
Bah!
when darkness turns to light @ 1:04 pm
