Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Question marks
Wham.What a whammy. As I put down the phone, ending the conversation on a very unstable note, the choice of song that was suddenly being played really hit hard. My all time no.1 song hit the waves. I started to sing along as I put down the phone. I sang along as my browser was slowly getting to this page. What a sad sad song for a very apt timing. What a whammy.
Now I am already in an irreversible continoum. I just hit replay on the mp3 player. I am singing to the wonderful lyrics as I speak...
..yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepi kuhancur nya hati ku bisa tak terkata......ku cuba pejam matatapi tak terlenakerana ku maseh teringat pada mu...Geee!!! I thought I was on an uphill ascend lately....
Things always never fail to show me that I am still down there lying lowly at rock bottom central of the lowest echolons of depression. I so so so.........want to get up and out!
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Yesterday morning I had a msn chat with a friend, and she provided some kind relief for this waning heart. Thanx cahaya. Its been really some time since I've heard such things, really. Thanx.
A question she had asked me had suddenly pinned me down with such complete power that I...
"Are you missing someone ?"It suddenly daunt upon me that I am missing her so badly. I am doing so many things to make me busy. Add it all up with the turmoil that I am facing and how 'I am so called handling it well' and it seemed that I have forgotten her. Or at least enough for me to move on...
It was re-iteratted with a simple conversation I had with a new friend.
I am simply still missing her. I can yak on about all the littlest thing about her as all these information are still at my finger tips. WHY is it still there ? WHY cant I forget it all...?
W-H-Y ?
when darkness turns to light @ 3:33 am
