it ends tonight,

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

another would have been

Waking up with activities in mind should not put one in a lethargic manner. It should have re-energized your body during your sleep and have kept you rejuvenated for the coming activities, especially since its 2 big time interviews.

Instead I woke up feeling tired, lethargic, aching back and arms and I couldnt put a finger as to why it was as such. It was only when I was online, reconfirming the address of the interview and re-checking the dates that it hit me, HARD.

& of course it never failed to amaze me that such a reason still pulls me down back to the lowlands where I had hailed from.

The sinking feeling one has, the tearful aura that it provides & the alluring sadness is just plain mindblowing.

I really don't know when it will stop. I am hoping it is soon. I want it to be real soon. But then again...

I was given a prep talk from menteri Cypher-Z the other day. He reminded me of dreams and the sole reason why I had not jump ship from the clouds of the dream creator company. He stated the one real reason is not in the brain but in the heart. In cloudy times like now, I aint certain if you were the real push and motivation, and I really aint certain...

For the heart sees peculiar stuffs which is almost impossible to decipher. Period.

Happy would-have-been 44th month yu.

when darkness turns to light @ 11:00 am