Wednesday, September 06, 2006
of Love and Friendship
So many things to say yet many go unspoken and will mostly forever be held in peace.Love is a strange thing. It never was easy to comprehend in the first place. Love is also a magical thing, something which unites many people together in close bondship together hand in hand.
Love is love & love is one thing. Friendship on the other hand is a total different thing together. Love and friendship co-exist but the fine line in between is a careful thread of blur between black and white.
How does one go about rekindling a friendship that was once so close ?
My recent nickname on MSN caused quite a stir, enough to whip up cakes to feed the whole of Africa, I guess. None so much the whipping to some that I never expected. Close kin and by kin I mean buddies, like ms.secretary and mr.teacher knew exactly that it wasnt true. mr.teacher went a mile extra to think of some disastrous situations that could have affected me. Thanks bradder. He and me and sgt hotstuff know each other well enough to sift what is black from what is white in each other.
This is the stuff that what friendships are made of and how love is universal in definition amongst men.
But when love and friendship had crossed borders and the grey area had been dipped to much in black or white once before, it is seldom difficult to hold on to what was when things had drfited. No doubt friends will always be friends but sometimes it is never the same.
A bestie I had once, and surprisingly from the opposite gender, even actually called to confirm what was going on. No doubt she told me that i her heart she knew I was playing all my joker cards but somehow she had to double check, and also on the pretence of checking for her mum. Ha. I knew her family well back then and even had addressed her mum how she has always done so, by Umi.
Umi wanted to know if I was really going to hold such a joyous occasion at the end of the year and with whom to. Of course she knows and I know and everyone knows (I hope) that it was just in a fit of vents and frustration to please the oh so 'adoring' crowd.
Actually the above 2 paragraphs doesnt quite relate to what I want to express, really. Its actually how the conversation just died down after the Q&A session. How close we once were just seemed so distant even when it genuinely sounded that both of us tried. It just ended on a low note with
ermm ok just beep me if anything, and lets organise a meet up with the rest......and it all ended just like that.
I felt sad that it has come to this and to think that friendship had an edured a mean spat between bestie and the one of the ex. I just couldnt understand it. No really, I just cant.
I cant bear to lose more good friends, loved ones that had forged close knit bondage with one another, remembering how the laughs and struggled to pull the final stages of our adolescent years. How both had chosen seperate paths in life and yet had a real good line of communication and connectivity. Some times, somethings just go differently as how we expect them.
Lets meet up again some time yar...
Love and friendship knows no boundaries nor no problems. Till our paths inter twine closely once more, once again (",)
when darkness turns to light @ 2:05 am
