Monday, October 02, 2006
just rambling
Its around 7 hours more before its my 1st day at work. I am finally really feeling it, it - that I'm starting a new employment. Its suddenly hitting on me & I am wondering am I truly the best candidate that they had employed. I don't know. Some times I talk to much cock and bluff myself out of too many things to realise the real impact that it has on me.
Too much talking can some times really land you in trouble. I don't know really what have I gotten myself into.
Looking back at my first employment with Motorola, I had wondered too, how I managed to land that interview for I had totally been unable to answer the most important questions of the interview. Imagine I had to write a simple program coding during the interview and all I could come up with back then was
"printf" thats all, and yet I still found myself going through 7 months of IT support in an environment that I was totally alien to. Some how I managed to pull it off for a total 7 months. What dA!!!
But the good thing of that 7 months is I had repick my 'so-called' programming skills. No! Its no where near the requirements of a diploma cirriculum, let alone mention the requirements set forth from my previous employment.
Now, tomorrow I will again be in unfamiliar territory. I will be working on a major revamp of their warehouse management system. A database yet again is what I will face everyday, only this time instead of C, linux, unix, SQL or what ever that I had somehow managed to skim through and pass, or had some relevant knowledge of, I will be working on a SAP database.
Don't even ask me what SAP stands for. I have no freaking idea & thats the reality. Thats the major blow to me. Its freaking me out how I am going to survive in the company from tomorrow onwards. Argh!
All this I'm sure is enough to cover my clouded mind from the routines of self pity and mundane self torture.
Arghhhhhh!!!
I read somewhere that once love is lost & I really mean lost, it will never be the same again. This has been going in my mind eversince I revamped my blogskin, just because I was in huge contemplations on wheather or not to include
the promise. I really don't know already.
7 days to Ramadhan and I'm thinking how I will plough through the rest of the 3 weeks. How then I will plough through the festive month of Syawal. It will be my 2nd raya straight that I will be alone on such a joyous occasion. It will also be quite saddening when I think of all the distant makcik and pakciks' that will definitely ask me when I am going to settle down and all.
So love, when its truly lost, will it return ??
Something funny my dad asked me out of the blue just yesterday. He was suddenly asking how much it cost to study overseas for a year. Of all the places he mentioned, he had to mention Australia. He had to ask how much
she was spending there and when
she will return. Kinda of funny that suddenly he was encouraging me to use up my fund to go overseas and study. Strange. Real strange. All honesty - at the moment I'd rather get a brand new bike and supe it up all ready for the track with that money then go overseas and study and have the slightest chance of bumming into
her and
her happy life.I want the Ducati 999!!!
Haha...my 30K won't even be enough for that bike. They don't call it the Ferrari on 2 wheels for nothing. K time to save up another 19K just to get the bike rolling out of the shop. Heeeeeee
=P
when darkness turns to light @ 1:19 am
