it ends tonight,

Friday, October 27, 2006

looking back

In the eye of the cyclone, all seems calm and non volatile yet if only they knew how this heart is cringing amidst it all. I try so hard to be happy during this festive period, for I am truly celebrating in the joy of Syawal. Yet, it is quite painful when once in a while, reality seeps through the cracks and does some gentle reminding.

When one is reminded....

I am so so so0o0o0o0o0o0o close... *points to space between two fingers tightly squeezed together* to saying goodbye. It is almost the time too. What great timing uh. It will be quite soon, I hope. I am just about ready to say goodbye, I think.

for issit still worth it. I am definitely questioning myself this.

*walks on slowly...whilst constantly looking over the shoulder*

Yesh is the answer, without a doubt, the answer always never fails to find its place in my heart. Sadly...

when darkness turns to light @ 8:56 am