Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Minal Aidil walfaizin
This is the period that I am asking to myself repeatedly, especially in a very eyes shut situation. Just what am I doing at work today!! Heh, 2nd day of Syawal and already back in the office slogging and slacking at my workspace
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I read with intrest hafriz's entry concerning Syawal and its true what he had mentioned. It has been a lil bit over-rated Syawal's celebration especially with the staging of this year's pesta raya live at bugis, on the eve of raya itself. That is the same night that all the Devils are happily clasping their arms as they wait in eagerment for the azan to be released back into the mortal world and regain control again over their puppets who had run the show for them during their absence. Hah. I had always been thought that there were 2 types of devils.
One is Azazil himself and his evergrowing horde of iblis and kunchu2 through out the generations. The other tpe of devil, is the human devil. One who's character and behaviour shows sparkling similarities to iblis and yet in namesake is still a human.
Oh well, we are now back with all the minglings again. The old man reminded the family that one should continue the good work that had been done during Ramadhan, if any, and should not let it stop just there...or let it be practised only during ramadhan. For we many never know if we are able to face another ramadhan again. InsyaAllah kita akan ketemui kehadiran Ramadhan semula. Ameen.
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...I was really pondering if I should had posted my previous post. I really am almost on the verge of saying goodbye. It has been 4 years, a good 4 years in fact. Reality check though, & I know that I have to move on.
I truly remember the date clearly 4 years ago. It was just a simple
hi online as an introduction and it led to great wonderful things. It was in my head alot of the time the whole day, yesterday. As I visited the elders and come across stories that are raised almost every year, I find myself in a whirlpool of time forever being sucked into obscurities that I'm unable to get out of. So it was because of the age old question on me getting hitched that I finally thought of that entry as I was driving along one of the expressways.
Rekindling kinship during such a joyous occasion is a great feeling, and I hope I will never feel the way some people look at Syawal. I am thankful of the upbringing that I have been instilled with and 1 day InsyaAllah, will pass on this legacy to my younglings ;)
1 thing that was quite different about my celebration this year is gaining more bonds and strength in my family ties through the waves that we are all sailing through together. It is quite a surprise that such occurances are repeating themselves years after it had happened, yet it also came as no surprise as to whom were at the end of the rifle squad at the end of the day.
Something else that was different was that slowly but surely the shift of paradigm in family seniority is in progress. Though my family will still be out visiting on the first day, the visiting to us as the elders (insert -> Dad & Mum) has inevitably begun. The first time in a very long time we had people over on the first day. The shift would have to begun sooner or later...
Of course, lets not forget the scurry in obtaining the family potrait. As usual who else is the one who defines the potrait and sets the best backdrop and settings for the picture perfect moment. If not for yours truly. Haha.
Le'Familie Raya 2006Without a doubt, all things always find their way to turning sour, even on such a good day. I am at a loss to where to proceed. It seems nothing I do, has been correct so far. I am stucked and squashed right up the middle. Moving to either my left or right is extremely wrong & staying in the same position is not right as well. Confused is such a tame word to use at the moment. I am so muddled up. Let me find the correct path, pave the true light for me to follow and hopefully I will not be blinded enough by the true light to be led to astray to the bushes or mud.
...Let me find the shining shimmering light by the night
with the grace of the young crestfallen moon...
& the bright stars of the galaxies and the universe,
& hold my hand and lead me truly, for...
I am finding my way...
I am finding my way.
