Tuesday, October 10, 2006
some unspokens
Sometimes its just easier when its unspoken, really...
My emotional desires is drying up fast.
Well at 1 point of time a few weeks back, I had thought, with all the flurry of dating activities and stuff, that it was okay. I had thought that I was quite clear up there in the brain, even had wonderful suggestions on how to move on fruitfully. Alas it always seems the case that I am coming short on answers. For my latest heart pain is to see
her do what I had expected
her to do. She really is going to stay there after
her graduation, I think. Especially since shes already on the look out for work/job and stuffs. Heck, she already has an apartment, its a natural progression for
her to take.
With every little visit that I take to her site, I never seem to fail to bring myself down. I just can't explain it, really. Ms.secretary had told me off once not to visit that site anymore, but nooooo stubborn ol' me just couldn't resist. Just have to take a peek every now and then. Well this is the outcome, I am quite sure.
I really do not know how to take things from here on now. For the promise still stands, still will be awaiting
her arrival from abroad. But then, I was only prepared to wait for her till she ended her studies and not to wait till she comes back with a boyfriend in tow. I know that that guy wont be graduating soon. I mean no offense to that guy, but I cant possibly write nice things about him...right. Well chances are that she whould only return when he is back with his degree. Thats a very high chance....
What will I to do. For when December arrives, followed by January...I know that many from down under would already have made their way to their homeland. I'm sure Hackwrench would too. But really...I do not know what to do now.
Sigh...oh I have been having problems hooking up my ThinkPad from home. Just cant connect it online from home and I cant access anything work related from home this way. Ermmm well...actually who wants to have anything work related at home right ??
Haha.
The ol' Lepak revival is up and coming again. The boyz were relaxing again yesterday and now the number seem to be quite stable. No longer it is just the 3 of us. Abg Chindian and Abg Jepun also joins us quite often now & not forgetting Badboy Sardine. Heh. He is forever being tag along by his missus. Think maybe, from all the chatter yesterday, he could be the first one in line to go. Just got to wait till he lands his first
real job.
& also, already been getting mailing address request from Azlin. She's finally going to tie the knot soon. Heh...I could be moved to tears due to past history. Wahahaha =P
Well this is just how things are unfolding as Syawal looms. The moon is all full and round these 3 days. Its all orangey too. Niceeeee. So just a fortnight more to go.
Bleargh... Got to work later :P
when darkness turns to light @ 6:06 am
