Tuesday, October 31, 2006
when's the red traffic signal coming on ?
Dead tired. Just plain simply dead tired.
I am going to hit a 3 week thick wall of long sitting. I don't know and cant imagine the complexities in trying to survive such mental torture. Its been only 1 1/2 days and sitting in a room of around 8 people talking about SAP 4.7 procedures, protocols and new methodology, when in fact you know TOTAL NUTS in such an embracing challenge.
Trust me....70% of the time I am stoning in a half dazes fashion, threading the invisible line between cloudy fairies and bright projectile display. I am constantly falling into the trap of closing my eyes for a few seconds, amidst a dark room where a person would be conversing in some strange language about computers, database and warehouse functions.
Another 10% of the time, I am restlessly moving around, shaking, tapping my legs and inter crossing cum switching positions of my flexible and elestico legs. I am drinking as much choco and milo, whatever thats availble that is...and also loads of water just in a vain attempt to try to stay awake.
1% of the time is damn productive. I actually understood whatever that was going on!! Wow!!
Which leaves just about 19% of the time if my maths doesnt fail me. Yes this 19% of the time, my mind is ever wondering, trying to stay awake with clouds of thoughts that would suddenly dispersse at the very moment of nodding off. Haha.
Makes me wonder what I think about...
Nothing else has been flying through this shroudded and sleepy mind but images, scenes and words of lost love of my short lil life span. It just makes me go zonk into another level, I tell you. Argh!!!
When will this mental suffering stop...?
But on the lighter side of things...it keeps me pre-occupied just enough in between sleeping, eating & drinking, fidgeting, learning and working to ease the pain of 3 weeks of pure boredom and total restraint. For yesterday, total time between laptop and my desktop was less than 1 hour, for the WHOLE day. So, its okie...what ever thats working....
Haha
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