Wednesday, November 15, 2006
1001 ways to move on
Its now not a question about wanting or not. Its now a question on how to.Many months back, I asked this same question to myself. How do I move on from here. Little did I realise that I was more then lying to myself back then, as it was proven I had not really gotten over it. Ask me honestly now, and I'd still say im not 100% over it...But...I'm sure my minds made up enough to leave only 10% unsure.Its really not wanting to or not, its the how to.Now that I want to move on, many obstacles come and face me & the first and the biggest would definietly be how to. No matter how strong willed and determined you are, you could be lead astray with the lingering thoughts if you are left alone one too many times. Its like long long ago, you used to spend time together, and when you were in depression, you'd used to spend all those times thinking negatively. So now that I want to move on, I just got to find things, events and people to spend the time with.So how now...Its not that I don't want to spend time with friends. Theres just so much you can do to spend time with your members. They are not so free to meet you everyday, and I'm sure their partners wont be too pleased with you spending all their time with you, and leaving them none. Anyway do friends really want to spend 24/7 with each other ??If you thought that was the bonus question, now heres the atomic kitten.I think I need to find a rebound. Haha. Not much in the sense like how I tried to find in the past. But just someone to spend more time with me then usual. Preferably a lady please ;P haha cause it makes a difference when its a guy. Its the guy mentality. But when you're out with a girl, its a whole different ball game.Now the aftermaths...The rebound though would preferably be just 1 girl, and not many. Heh, cause I'd just tend to mix them up after a few dates. Really now, issit really that great to be going out with girl A today, girl B a few days later, girl C the next week, jumble them up within the next week or so, and not to mention add in girl D and E into the equation. I thought it was initially but No...I dont wish for that. Not now anyway ;p Haha. I dont want a rebound in that way. Cause I would only be falsifying peoples hopes and I dont want that. I just want a girl to spend some time with me regularly enough. A girl to go out on dates with and know that I want no strings attached. Cause when the girl doesnt know it, and I have gotten it quite a few times these few months, they tend to message you after a few dates and ask, "what do you treat me as?"Hahaha.So there. Thats the solution I need. Thats the clearest cut way back to rehab. Thats the only way to go. Unless people strongly disagree with it, please come up with a better suggestion. Oh and going to school doesnt count k ms.secretary ;PI just need a good friend from the opposite side of the gender to comfort me now.Sigh.
when darkness turns to light @ 4:59 pm
