it ends tonight,

Thursday, November 09, 2006

That is the question & here...can you accept the answer

I am not sure who this is from but its certainly strong words to me...

You might know only 4 words in English "Be", "Not", "To" and "Or" but your words become very powerful and meaningful when you write: To be or not to be

It really is the ends of 2 pendulum swings. From one end to another and yet not being able to find the diminishing centre median. That fine division between going bonkers on both side. That absolute definition between the 2 extremes. The 2 extremes which seems to have good and bad on opposite sides of a table but very uglily both extremes sit side by side in coated arms dressed of the dark side. Being a round ball being kicked from 1 end of the field to another in a so called attempt to change our ways of where we lie in the depths of the dungeons. I am at my wits end, and when being asked yesterday if I was in depression...

I could sadly only utter yes...

From one end to another...

Being able to erase one bad side which I was reveling in, but only to potray another side which seems to be better but upon deep digging, one will only know thats its a whole blardy big cover up. The other side is greener indeed but its not necessarrily the better side. The other side has upon me the darker and more heinous acts which I am not able to control.

I am still not over yu...
I am still not over the incident...
I am still down thereeeeeee, all the way down there just waiting & waiting

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when darkness turns to light @ 4:53 pm