Thursday, December 28, 2006
blabbering update
I have been staring at the blogger new entry post page for days and ends, just staring into oblivion, finding it so hard to update. The urge in me to update is liken to a fire thats running out of firewood. The passion in me to write down my thoughts is no longer burning as brightly. I aint quite sure why!
I look at my tagboard. It seems to be active, with friends chipping in their encouragements. Thank you people. I have the urge to so so talk back on some of the tags, heh but I just cant seem to even tag back properly. Something is definitely wrong with me.
Its only a few days left to 2007. I re-read my whole December posts and I shake my head thinking about how I wanted to so much reach my target in that early days of December. Alas though, its what I have always come to encounter. The punturing of spirit combined with problems that pile up.
This post seems random. Cause I dont have a general theme for what I want to write today, unlike for which I normally do for all my posts. This just seems to be blabbering to the nonsensical sense. Complaints even maybe ?
1 thing that I feel right now is the feeling of being out of love. Ha!
I watched Love Actually on Xmas eve was it ? I also had watched The Holiday. I so so felt out of love. Hah. With the kind words from ms.secretary, its not that I dont want to move on. I already had set my sights on moving on somewhere in the middle of november. It is always & I mean always easier said then done. No matter how much of a brave front we potray to people, it will hit us back. The bigger the pleasent picture we paint, the more suffering it seems we will clash head on when pile stacks down.
Feeling physically sick doesnt help much either. Every 2-3 days, my nose will be a leaking tap. I cant control it. Argh. It really is sucky when you have certain aspects of your life which you cant control.
Oh oh...I heard this profound phrase the other day.
When you cant control your time, you can never control your life.I was nodding my head in agreement so much when I heard this. Is it because I cant control my time that I dont seem to be able to steer my life on a 1 true course ?? Maybe yah...
For the past few days, my life has been just shaking past me with such mighty gusto. I couldnt seem to have been able to hold to any key events of the past few days well. Hah. Anyway, I managed to catch a Night at the Museum last night with 2 guys from the Tengah Clan. Hah. So reminiscent of my poly 3rd year days slacking between LT17 & LT18, not to mention foodcourt4.
Theres a phrase from A Night at the Museum which I think I had written down in one my earliest post before. Its something to do with how we learn from the past rich history to make the best of the future. Ironic uh how I could have written that many months ago yet I still make the same old mistakes over and over again. Geee....
If I never am able to post up another post before the end of the year, heres to the cheer, joy and experience 2006 has taught me!
To all muslims, wishing you all Salam Aidiladha. Maaf zahir dan batin.
Somehow after I wrote those lines, I have a feeling I will definitely put in a post or 2 before the new year. Hehe....
when darkness turns to light @ 3:11 pm
