Saturday, January 13, 2007
Baby, sometimes love just aint enough
Yesh dear ms.secretary, it took many many months but the cracking of this skull just to insert the correct values and re-tune this brain set up has finally been truly on it way. Doesnt matter that it took months of toil and perserverance, countless nights of efforts in upheaving shit that clouds above me and streams of coins and rivers of notes in cash that went along with it. The process has finally begun.
Such an apt date at it!
The burden heavy chested me would probably be dwelling ALOT on the 13th of a month, especially this date. Since mua is date crazy over memories. The 13th of January signifies alot in my short 24 year span of life. 13th of January 2007 will go along way in the memory books as to how I spent it. Wow.
...The guys have been putting alot of leisure activities in our schedule lately. Especially to kick start 2007. They had been planning on a Sentosa day for some time but the rainy season has been dampening the beach and along with it our spirits for some time. The other day, they even had a planned outing to zoo which was also wash away by the rain and its clouds.
And so us guys tried our luck. We planned an overnight session at sentosa to welcome the saturday morning, in all its basking glory and all. Of course it was raining as per normal on the friday night, so obviously we could not overnight straightaway, and so we decided to go with the rain and immerse ourselves in a night of sweat on the dancefloor. Yeah sooo what if we were grinding away! Ha!
Anyway just in case any one was following the tags....
There is a difference in tagger 'A' & tagger 'a'. & I have a hard knocking sense of feeling I know who they are. Haha. Let you people have a free perception of me. It doesnt really matter. Cause what ever that I have stated here has been the truth on what nonsense I have done, what regrets I have faced and also what joy I have cherished. By the way, what my sister says is true, sadly. Haha. I dance in sort of a weird way. I acknowledge that fact whole heartedly. but hey nobodys complaining. I just let it all out in my own way. There isnt any signboard that says "you cant dance weirdly," nor "You cant grind" on the dancefloor you know. Think about it anyway, if I was a lousy dancer, would I be getter the girls ? Does that constitutes as a player ? Haha. Im having a nice little laugh writing this. And just so those peering eyes want to know, I aint no clubbing addict type of shit that must come down 2 -3 times a week. Heck I didnt even use to patronise such places if not for the camaraderie that my fellowship is bringing me now.
Hah! Thanks guys ;P
*pfft*And so as we, or rather Abg Chindian was sipping coffee in the wee hours of the morning at Liang's McD, it was still some what raining. Should we have abandonned our plan ?? We were thatttttttttt incy wincy close to throwing in the towel and wanting to blame the rain on spoiling our Sentosa Saturday.
I looked deep in my self, in my heart of what ever little knowledge that I knew. After finding the isma, or spot, I looked up to the sky to push away the rain clouds as I raised a small prayer for sunshine, or rather clear skies. And off we went to pass through the sleepy gates of Sentosa at 5+ in the morning.
Wow! What a refreshing feeling the water is at 6. The whole of Palawan beach was deserted up till around 9. It was so clearing the mind the swim I had. It was so negative emo-draining as I soaked up into the dawn skies. It was a soreyes as the guys went skinny dipping. Haha.
What an overhaul to the body and mind systems. What a new begining to the day, and to my new life. As I dived into the dark waters with a prayer in my head, I found a new lease of sunshine in all that was calm of the backwashes as I reared my head for air. It aint a deletion of my file systems. It was a simple fix to the cabinets of my memories. Just placing all unwanteds in the archives, where it aptly belongs. A Defrag you could say. WOW! So much free space that could be used all of a sudden ;)
Jumping squares, 4 on 5 frisbee action, more swimming (for me), lepaking by the early morning dew on the beach, talking crap, soaking in the atmosphere, picture taking and finally breakfast. Comparing the time that all of us were dead beat, we thought hey, if we actually planned a sentosa visit, we would probabyly just had arrived. And it was only 9++am!!!
To the people who made it happen for... Thank you guys(and girls) for the wonderful time.
As were having breakfast, smooth oldies songs were on the air, filling up our ears with waves of relaxing and soothing music. It was a good moment. A round up of the day's activity, especially for me. When in particular a certain song was played. I dont know who or what the name of the song is. I cant remember also the name that was given to be the name of the singer. Heh, but when it suddenly got to a certain line...
...Baby, sometimes love just aint enough...I knew for certain everything has been put all behind me. No more will I be looking back(much) with all the grief and sadness nor will I be walking back to find the stones of anguish and painful reflections. I have moved on certainly on this day. & what an apt date uh ?
me being the sucker for dates and memories just got to state it out. wahaha.
4 years ago, at approximately this timing, 2 became 1...afterwhich 4 years later, it is all but just a distant and fading (??) memory which will serve to be the roots of my growth. So long Mardiana. If we ever cross paths again, if our eyes meet again, I'd be happy to get just a smile. No more hope in this can of bees. And how I'd always believe,
Kalau jodoh tak ke mana.
Wahahaha ;)
...And the guys reach home safely from Sentosa ard noon...
...Baby......sometimes......love......just......aint.....enough... PS; oh oh!! How could I not mention. To my dearest good friend and old buddy, my former bedok reservoir neighbour & the girl(back then) who opened up new perspectives in my life, Marlinda. Happy 25th Birthday!!!
K dah ;)
when darkness turns to light @ 7:13 pm
