Friday, January 26, 2007
skin deep
Anyone caught the reality show 'Beauty & the Geek ??'
Things always happen for a reason. Strangely they will always fit nicely like pieces of a jigsaw when you can finally see the
BIG picture after it all.
After yesterdays minimal conversations which I tried to conjure up, todays rest day proved a much needed eye opener and reflector of who I was and how '
great' I really was in my own small realm and own
REAL small world of friendster.
I'm sure majority of netizens have heard of friendster and most would probably have an account. It is the replacement of the ever popular e-circles of eons ago. After which , now there are many such clones of sites. K, I shall not dabble further on that topic. Im veering way of course. Back to friendster. With so much free time in the afternoon and after the upteenth time of not getting my html coding correct, I just browsed through friendster, which by the way is an everyday ritual or whenever I go online. Normally I would just browse my friends profiles and 2nd degree profiles. If I was really bored I'd reach the 3rd degree. Not today though, as I was that bored that I re-read all my own testimonials given by my friends.
Latest testimonials I have are normally such picture messages with flash enabled media. Or just some sort of funny and non-testimonial type of testimonial. Get it ;)
As I went further and further into time via friendster and read on the types of personality and character people have percieve me as, coupled with a few history passages between friends, I kept thinking... why am I in such a state that I was a few months ago ? Why am I still not back at the pole position of a race with myself now ? Grin after grin and finally I reached the end. Theres a few which I liked for their honesty and all. haha ;P But of all the testimonials I recieved, 1 stood out like a sore thumb. Its from non other but by a fellow blogger who writes in wonderfully great summaries.
With the highest disctinction and honour, I proclaim the below mentioned an apt summary of me at my peak ;)
"...ghahahahaha anyway,.when i think of kadir, i think of the loud curly haired motocycle loving dude from SP but now in NS.. one ting for sure kadir inspired me to be confident..and loud..ahahaha..remeber the time we first chatted? ..."
Thank you hafriz for your honesty ;p whichhh, brings me to the very first line of this post...
..."Beauty & the Geek 2"...My my that is such a wonderfully outrageuos idea. Such ingenuity and the producers pull it off so well. The deeper lines that cut through and the invisible messages that were put across is fabulous. Crazy even. Crazily in good as good can ever mean. And its in the second season already and the 2nd last episode at that.
Cant believe I didnt catch such a show.
As I watched the 'geeks' and the 'beauties' being put through the rounds of mental tests of learning and so-called character building, I just couldnt help it but feel for some of the similar situations which I had truly encountered as well.
The particular epsiode that I caught brought such calamity to the 'beauties' when they were placed in a role-reversal of the 'geeks.' For being placed in a bar but dressed not to the nines but in shadily and non-appealing outfits, even to my low standards fugly(I
m refering to the clothes). No make up, no real accessories but just their character(if any) to show for. The test was just to see how many drinks they could entice guys to buy them. Sounded so simple yet...
The rejection that I have faced through the years really was put onto spotlight in a center stage sort of way, right beside the television in my living room. Its the same as to how some of the beauties were coming to terms with their shallow character and absolute zero for confidence. Heh...I couldnt help but just snigger as I saw in fast forward, within that short show, how my own confidence and character grew throught the years ;)
Just brimming from the insides I tell you. It was a small and gentle reminder to me of how great a person I truly can be, when I CHOOSE to be. Oh how fate spins everything and how greatness is shown to me in 1 wonderful friday.
Personality, character and confidence are things found in us which aint just skin deep.
For I aint just skin deep :)
Yet why do people always choose to remain at such levels only. 1 can only wonder.
when darkness turns to light @ 9:09 pm
