it ends tonight,

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

a small lil outburst

I have come to a point where I can utter not much about myself.

Someone somehow managed to crack and peel off certain outer lying shells of mine and came up with an old description on how she vaguely remembers me. It was very heartening to read out 4 points, 4 good points as I see. Reading out aloud in my brain 4 compliments about ones self can certainly brighten up a bleak evening.

Yet in that same day, many hours earlier, I had been brought to miniature smiles on how I was the central topic of conversation as I had come to find out. Maybe all those little things, did have something good out of 'em. Maybe just maybe, people are starting to notice that the one thing I am always remembered by, is the one little thing where my strength lies.

Only time will tell...

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Time has told on 1 warmth aspect that I had been seeking. A warmth that I truly have been badly in need of. No matter that it came in a different form. It was warmth. No matter it was not complete. It was warmth. So be it that I had to get half a hug from my pillion. Beggars cant be choosers now. I'll take anything that comes in my path. Period.

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I have been deprived of REAL talking. REAL COMMUNICATION.
Dont deprive me of a little comfort & warmth.

I need a hug real bad. A HUGE ONE.

when darkness turns to light @ 2:23 am