Wednesday, June 11, 2008
28 - 26 = 2.7x
The trust a colleague had in me was amazingly huge. In that great reveling though, I chanced upon something which is superbly disturbing to me at the moment.
I have always known all along how much educators are paid. Heh I grew up on educators' pay. & yet I was very much caught off-guard with the digits that I saw. It totally shook me off my seat. That led to a small & mini conversation on how much my pay is so paltry in comparison to his. No doubt on my part his stature in society and his academic scrolls but we are only 2 years apart. I started working around the same time as him & yet...
What pertubes me the most is the way those digits are mind boggling and insanely far away from mine. I had to check with my girlfriend, "why again am I a CCPE?" to which she answered, "because you love the job."
Let me try to put aside those lovely students, especially those that I have come to be very fond of. Lets put aside the great supervisors and wonderful working environment. Brush off even the colleagues that are now great friends. The events and wonderful activites and what about all the running around it is giving me...pick up now and lets chuck it one corner too.
Why am I staying ??
Ohhh...there is the CCPE familie. The great people whom I have a shoulder, or in this instance many shoulders to cry and complain on. They are the light to which when I need to escape the rigours of the education sector. They are the ones whom are under going similar plights as me & they are the ones that keep me sane.
But is all of that enough ??
The digits still swirl in my mind. The first thoughts that flew through my mind were how its 3 TIMES of what I earn. & after which I had settled down with my thoughts, a quick calculation led to 2.7 times. Shit thats still ALOT! This is the juncture where I am deciding if I should stay or walk. My kind and trusting colleague even told me that I am not paid the worth for amount of work thats been done. sigh sigh.
In such an inflated market where booming oil prices always steadily goes up. An era that my pay alone wont allow me to buy a flat, especially since flat prices are going up again. A time that $10 no longer allows me eat out with my partner and still have change. Heck, its not even sufficient!!
I ponder on the piles and piles of work that make up the mountains on my workstation. I think of all the so-called welfare that my company is providing me. I cringe at the pathetic pay that I am drawing each month. I really question myself if I am still loving the job.
I aint sure...
...only maybe because the digits are affecting me.
I cant think rationally at the moment.
But I really really wish that my management would read this and reflect...
Is it so hard up for the company to profit less just to ensure a lower trun over rate. To ensure they keep the best. To ensure precious training hours dont go to waste. Oh of course to ensure that people stop licking deir management balls to get a higher pay. I grow weary of the need for appearances in HQ level some times. For I know...all of that sometimes doesnt matter. Ive seen it once too often. You pile on the delegation and so called titles and make use of our ingenuity and sheer hardwork, is it so much to ask for more ?
With my own eyes, I have seen countless leave and when all was filtered, the 'big' fat paycheck always seem to be the pull and push factor. Neither how much they had loved the school nor the fondness that had attached to them could make them stay. I really understand why... These are sometimes what I see for myself, the people who are much much better in this job than I am. They who contributed much much more than what the norm does & yet...
Hey ...I aint spectacular. I dont consider myself good. I just am a loud motor mouth who does his job last minute every time and makes use of all oppurtunities to skive. But since you rate me not bad & the school rates me not bad, why aint I deserving something bigger ?
Walauwe! This is really affecting me today!
People from HQ, please read this & analyse!!
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