Tuesday, September 30, 2008
the 1st of the month beckons...
Above all else that has passed in this few recent weeks, I truly am going to miss my 'caveman' look. Refined or not, I suddenly feel amiss when theres no bushy feeling at my chin, or when I pucker up my lips and theres no hairy feeling. & of course I will miss too, the itchy feeling thats akin to something crawling up my nose. Hah!
its just starting out
the full caveman look
the 2days refined lookI am going to miss Ramadhan, for its presence was not fully utilised(by me). Its too late for regrets of course and I pray that I will meet the next in good health, InsyaAllah.
& Syawal...
& October...
They are here now, for its time for me to wake up -_-
...& I am uncertain still. I can only proceed and work with what I think I have...
& that means leaving my status in dots & complication ...I guess =/wishing one and all,
Salam Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin
Tulus & Suci
Iklas Setia Hati
Ridak Ludba ;)
zamry17@singnet.com.sg
Monday, September 29, 2008
what if...
The mind works in very funny ways. It doesnt exactly tell you what needs to be done & how it needs to be done. Just images of what should or could be the outcome of selected paths... for it has been an intresting week that has whizzed passed.
Of all the absent minded ideas that bumped around in my little pink brain, much has been about wondering the what ifs. I just cant help it. I know its not good but what if...
What if ...I was still with any of my ex-es. Hah! ...of all the what ifs!!
Wondering what if can never really do much positivity in one's life but I keep going round in circles this week arriving at all the what ifs.
What if I had signed on in SPF, what if I didnt take my riding license back then, what if I didnt fail my 1 and only supp paper, what if I had gone on to win PSK in 99, what if I had ACTUALLY studied, what if I had got that airport job, what if...
Pondering too much doesnt do wonders. Hah. I am so upset at myself this Ramadhan :( I really am. & yet another what if.
...& am going to really miss my
so called 'caveman' look. Hah
End of Sept beckons, just wake me up then...
when darkness turns to light @ 6:42 am
Sunday, September 21, 2008
painting peek-cheers
What have I been missing out on ??
I miss being an online painter. A painter using a keyboard as his easel. Potraying lavish pictures with words out of his life stories and experiences. Pinching on dashes of colour to the canvas in criss cross fashion. Oh I miss those times...
Lately the words, the phrases, the sentences and the stories... they are just ultimately pictures in my mind. For I have been bitten hard on my tongue. The cat has literally caught it with its vicous paws and not letting go. o0o the incinuating pain that I go tru every now and then, whenever screen shots are flashed beyond my eyes.
I miss this...
& I hope I can just let go some of this kept burden here like how I used to...
when darkness turns to light @ 1:49 am
new skin
blog codes finally changed...
for they seemed to have been there for an eternity...
...my blog has found its light...
have I found mine ?? Gee...
when darkness turns to light @ 1:35 am
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
...
I am after all else, a son. & I shall just have to bow my head in agreement then...
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& sometimes a necessary evil has to be done. I dont feel too great about it yah...
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I still lay out my hands in open fashion waiting for the green buck to roll in. For I aint self sufficent yet, so I shall just keep my mouth shut and let my work do the talking...
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& every year, it truly gets harder, the tests. The light that I feel is brighter every year though...
when darkness turns to light @ 8:36 pm
Saturday, September 06, 2008
seemingly like another senseless entry...
I dont know whats happening in here...nor in my life. It all seems to be a mess but when I delve into the problems carefully, it strangely seems to be a perfect mess. Like its all part of a grand plan thats coming nicely into its jigsaw. Wonders of Ramadhan I can safely assume ;)
...makes me really wonder where all this is bringing me to...
ohhh... & I so have an inferiority complex feeling right now. Hah but who can blame it right except for me ?
This so doesnt make sense...
(I know cause I re-read alot of my previous posts...n some just dont make any sense and I cant recollect anything from the words. Haha)
...& yahh...
I havent tasted any new apples yetaints sure if its a good or bad thing
when darkness turns to light @ 4:53 pm
