it ends tonight,

Monday, September 29, 2008

what if...

The mind works in very funny ways. It doesnt exactly tell you what needs to be done & how it needs to be done. Just images of what should or could be the outcome of selected paths... for it has been an intresting week that has whizzed passed.

Of all the absent minded ideas that bumped around in my little pink brain, much has been about wondering the what ifs. I just cant help it. I know its not good but what if...

What if ...I was still with any of my ex-es. Hah! ...of all the what ifs!!

Wondering what if can never really do much positivity in one's life but I keep going round in circles this week arriving at all the what ifs.

What if I had signed on in SPF, what if I didnt take my riding license back then, what if I didnt fail my 1 and only supp paper, what if I had gone on to win PSK in 99, what if I had ACTUALLY studied, what if I had got that airport job, what if...

Pondering too much doesnt do wonders. Hah. I am so upset at myself this Ramadhan :( I really am. & yet another what if.

...& am going to really miss my so called 'caveman' look. Hah

End of Sept beckons, just wake me up then...

when darkness turns to light @ 6:42 am