Sunday, November 30, 2008
of november 2008
November oh November..
You have been all inspiring,
You have put me in awe with your amazement...
Yet truly...
You have shooked the very grounds upon which I stand
& you have rattled me off the fine balancing pole.
Full of ups & downs, emotions & hysterics. Drama, comedy & suspense.
You have made me smile...and you have made me wait in all eagerness...
November...
For I will truly remember more of the good stuff in november 2008...
Saturday, November 08, 2008
november still in upheaval
The mixture of emotions is crazy. It is all flying around in circles above me. Swirling & sidewinding in a mini halo over my head. My hands are jittery too at the moment. The emotions, it is all causing a very big blur to blow up right now. I can feel all the goosebumps running up my spine in ecstasy.
No real words can explain how I truly am feeling....
Flabergasted, dumbfounded, stupid even are just momentary feelings.
VERY SMALL words to describe
SMALL MINUTE feelings that goes through my brain and heart at this present time. I keep asking why! I keep trying to calm myself from being to emotional. I've been chanting and murmuring praises to Allah just to stop me from breaking down into an emotional wreck. But the more I try to slow the fast blurry actions across my eyes, the more I chant Astargfirllah, and the more I try not to even
THINK about... it is all wearing me so thinly down.
I really am feeling...
I am either so different from their thinking...
Or I am just stubborn.
Truly, I wish that I am the latter, so that the bad labels are just on me....for truly that is what I am wishing for...
...dotty dotty dot...
Sadly & hopefully the truth, for I am not one to rest on my laurels. Not one to just be contented and percieve life as an achievement to have stable things. I know there is more out there...and for every dream that I have tried to pursue & FAILED. I know...
for it will just bring me one step closer to the REAL DREAM. & I will savour the moment then, not as point to prove that they were wrong but as a savoury of sweet delicacies, for success (whenever I achieve it) will be sweet and I will remember this journey.
MasyaAllah. Kita Hanya Dapat Merancang Tapi Tuhan Tetap Menentukan Nya.
Patience is bitter but the fruits are sweet...
when darkness turns to light @ 5:59 pm
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
a november full of surprises so far
Okay okay...maybe the mad rush of blog post didnt come in...
haha...oh wells
here are the links for my KL & motoGP holiday pics...
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35714&l=30ab1&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35716&l=7c586&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35717&l=63572&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35719&l=cbe69&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35721&l=495bb&id=614559543& here are the links for my P6 melaka trip...
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=37383&l=5a6cf&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=37386&l=73a47&id=614559543
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=37396&l=9e9f0&id=614559543
November has proven to be a rather amusing & surprising month so far. I cant seem to go more than 24 hours for something to pop up and rock me off balance. From the very weird, to the unsurprising surprise, to an unexpected turn up, to some minor misunderstanding which is blowing way beyond preportions, and also to a discovery which is VERY time critical for me to react.
The need to shout it all out...
HEY ITS ONLY THE 5th!!
I wonder what else will unveil in November...
when darkness turns to light @ 1:23 am
