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Approximately a week ago, I had an urge. A strong dying feeling to write a good meaningless entry that only, perhaps, intellects like me would understand. Somehow I abondoned that idea, for I remember being unable to understand the profound words that I write sometimes. Haha.

So I placed my rough fingers on the keyboard, waiting. Waiting and waiting some more. The fingers were all raring to go yet the brain just could not flow with beautiful words of poetry that I wanted to. I tried hard but to my dismay, my mind just couldn't bear any fruitful ideas. None at all. Not a single line.

& so I searched back all the poetry which I had penned before. I didnt write that many but there were a notable few. 1 of which I am very proud, was during my brain's messiest moments. I was damn topsy turvy during that period. Which made me contemplate. Do I write best only when the emotions are in full force, or rather logically dysfunctional. Heh.

I am being honest to myself.
I could only answer a silent yes.

An emotional wreck I am now
with tumbling thoughts of stacking rocks
Beseiged by pelts of heavy rain,
your stones of darkness a relief & restrain

So heavy & painful this tumbling thoughts,
the rain of stacking rocks I'm under
Protect me now beneath it all
Your wings it provide so shelter me under

As the stones of darkness presides & looms
I'm lost in search of seeking it all
For beneath the surface...where is the glow ?
The light that shines through, does anyone know

The tumbling thoughts of stacking rocks,
Its burying me deep beneath alot
So help me please oh shining light
Just pull me up into delight.

As the rains are pouring again these few days, I can only wonder what I truly was thinking when my mind flowed with the flowery language. For I can only remember the sequence of events leading up to the point when I wrote but now what I was exactly feeling.

Also, back when I penned this, I know I did not have that much readers (not that I have many now heh!) but I can safely say the numbers are more now as compared to back then. We shalln't count all the annonymous people who pop up once in a while. But to my loyal readers ;P please do give your take on the writing above ? especially those literature peeps yah. Give me your take and comment in the findings ;)

Thanx.

Now that was a mind reliver.

& hey!! Finally its the 28th! It is official.
Happy Birthday my dear mr.teacher (",)
Please be reminded that you are already a quarter of a century bro. Hehe. Live life to the fullest is what you think. True but be wary of the fine dissapearing line you are threading on my friend. Good luck in your teaching career aites ;)




Farewell mate. We are surely going to miss you.
It was a nice goodbye for our dear Zul sepet. The gang was there to see him off. The last time we would see him until he decides to come back with that degree. So maybe this paves the way for less reason to partying since he is no longer here. Heh. But boys will be boys & a reason will sometime just pop up. Heh.

Anyway I got to find some very disturbing news.

When I arrived at the airport, the peeps began to ask me how was track day, since they knew how much I had anticipated it. It was just hard trying to explain to them what my real feeling was. IT just told me to stay home. IT was a divine intervention from him that I finally recognised and understood. So the peeps just nodded in agreement.

When sgt hotstuff arrived & I started asking about the track conditions, I was going Woah!! The rest heard it too, and they suddenly really went like, "nasib ko tak pergi" For it was truly a divine intervention. One of the guys that was in the group that I was supposed to go up with crashed while taking the turns at pasir gudang. The bike I heard was in tatters & the guy dislocated his shoulder *ouch* I shivered with tingles to the hip, where I had a dislocation before. Ouch I went again.

There were plenty of bikes today too. The crash rate today was quite high as well. Alhamdulillah my friends were okay, save for one. Lucky he was not that bad. I really must learn to recognise this feeling that protects me, for it comes from him.

Never mind k Rose. March's track day then it shall be, or any other day that I feel its safe to go up again ;)

Oh and congrats and kudos to [K]. Wahhh terror ar srad600 eh. Podium finish for track day. Fe-Weeet!! 2nd say!! ehehe. So whats next ? podium for clubman series (",) *nudge*


Yesterday, after a good day of activites that were quite fruitful, I was typing a post which was supposed to be published yesterday. I was quite happy with the day, Saturday. It was eventful. To top it all off, I would be having supper & would be going Pasir gudang the next morning. Read what I had typed...

"The whole day turned out quite fine. Pretty fine indeed. Glad that it all went smooth. Now let us not be emotional about any setback, if there were any to begin with in the first place. Heh.

I just got to warn myself not to be emotional about anything negative that could and im sure would happen within the next week or 2. Just have to be mentally strong & just plough it through."

It was already sunday when I typed that last sentenced. & as soon as that sentence was over, Sweet child of mine was blaring from my mobile. A lovely sms leaving me hungrily at home. Heh. How ironic my life can truly be.

Anyway my dear friend who ditched me on the last minute, heh, fret not okay, I really am used to such situations.

It seemed to roll downhill all the way from there.

Sunday morning was Track day at pasir gudang. Ive been hyping up this event for so long. what a waste. I just had a weird feeling telling me to stay put on my bed when it was time to suit up. I just couldnt ignore that VERY deep gut instinct of mine. My sister walked into my room at noon very surprised that I was at home. She knew how much I wanted to take Rose to the track =(

Anyway I attended functions in the afternoon. To all those who knew Fatin Laila. She is a mum now. Fatin, the first from the opposite sex to know more things about me at that age of mine. She was a close friend, and now she is family ;)

And with fatin's sis in law getting married & another of my relative getting engaged, its no small wonder that the normal questions popped up. To the family, I dont go rude and answer the normal "DECEMBER" heh, I just go politely, "I'll wait for my sister first, the best is both my sisters get married before I go find one for myself."

Awwww...so responsible right ;)
Haha.

& can you believe it that as I typed this post, my bed actually fell apart. LITERALLY. The wooden planks supporting the mattress just went Ke-Plank, and the pieces dropped like jengga. This is just so not my day.
Whats with the 25th ???
*ponders*


I was in the new place...
It was HUGE I tell you. It was spacious. It was well renovated and I was imagining the many wonderful things that could be said of the place. & I thought the previous floor space was big & impressive. This was like just WOW. To top it all off, it is totally near to home ;)

& with the side of my eye, as I was chatting with one of erm folks, I saw an old mentor walking briskly in the driection towards me. With his smile that never fails to brighten up any one's day, he called out my name and gave me a firm handshake that shook jitters inside of me. Already singled out and mentioned in front of 200+ people, that small little gesture of a handshake was definitely appreciated.

"When you want something, make sure you go all way out for it"

A small simple reminder, that was all...

I thought back within a flash, of all and I really mean plentiful of things that I WANT in life at the moment. & I thought aint I asking for too much. Am I not being greedy for wanting it all. Will I not be sparsely streched from all the efforts of all my WANTS.

Like a bright shining beam, it came down upon my head within an instant. I should go for everything that I want. I should put in all the best effort in all that I want. We know that we wont achieve everything but we know better if we dont try we will never be within grasp of it at all. Its a humongous number game anyway. We just have to put in our best foot forward for all the things that we want and at the end of the day, the dividends will be put forth accordingly.

And so be it then...

For all the things that I want, watch out. I am gunning you down!!!


It started by mesmerising us to the eerie tick tocking of clocks, lots of them. Prompted even one of us to think that this was a horror move. Ha!

It had all the elements necessary to horrify our brains to work though, in this wonderful & surprisingly long movie. It was especially tedious for the "guys who wanted to watch it."

Cute comedic lines encompassing a playground smoothered what seemed like a rough edged 9mm begining. It was to take us on a rollercoaster ride that we thought we could predict. We were all more then wrong. Emotional grip set upon us our seats and held us back with love, suspense, drama, porn, sports, extreme sports and mini-action even. It even swung between 2 ends that somehow the person beside me could not hold back her tears. She could not hold back her jumping body too when she a huge shock in a scene capturing frightening second. Haha.

The wonderful potrayal of characters that brought to life seemingly real emotions that can be felt in everyaday scenarios must surely be the biggest winner. Hats off to Kate Winslet on her big tits, ermmm I mean bigger ass, ermmm hmm okay I meant her biggest display on screen, to me, as yet.

The only weird adaptation the movie had was how it was really made to seem like it was "desperate housewives with kids" haha. I took that right off my little sisters lips. It was possibly just sheer and a lousy conincidence that there was a weird speaking guy narrating the movie all the way, when I dont think there was an actual need to.

In all, what was etched in our beautiful minds after the movie, WAS NOT our LOUD GRUMBLING TUMMIES but must definitely be "tuesdays at 9", "weekdays at 4", "concern for children committee", "slutty kae" and the best yet un-spoken phrase of the movie, "penis at the swing" heheh (",)

I had a great time at the movies yesterday. Glad I forced my way to watching it, & to those who grew green with the jealousy bug, you shouldnt have. The movie was not intended for you to watch it =P. Oh Lady Hackwrench, I made sure you met Zul sepet before he leaves right ? And of course, my quote of the night - Welcome to the real world of friendster networking.

What is stuck in my mind now, disturbing me from my work, will still be "tuesdays at 9" heh but it will also be, in order of how I got 'em

• 'rabak tak ajak'
• 'mengurat at the library'
• 'sleeping during tuition'
• 'keep the change, kakak dah kerja sekarang'
• 'he complained "I wasnt invited".'

ahhhh, chronicles of a night out when you're working the next day. TGIF!!!
& I will make sure I remember at exactly 20:59hrs on tuesday, to sms mr.teacher "KERING!!"
*grins*





In order of seating
Aisya Cina - Mr.Teacher - Abg Chindian - Zul Sepet - Fireman - Faj - Lin - Me
To the people that ended my long weekend with a bang! Thanks to all of you! Only these people could make me drink expensive coffee and yet still enjoy it. & what was it with ashes and me just now ?? Ouch people...literally and methaphorically

Wonder what happened in the end...what not with the slippers being tied up to the chair. For that short magical moment, time just stood still as I felt that we were zapped back into time like when all of us were still teenagers. Zaman2 kental la katakan. Heh.

I love you guys (& girls) hehe (",)


Blogger is acting weirdly strange & shitty.

Its not allowing me to express myself fully by not showing all my published posts at immediately. Bleagh. I am not feeling too good. Hungry and there is a still a slight tinge of despair. I've been literally couped up in my room for the whole of monday and my last meal was at Sunday Vivo city BK around 11.

Geeee...!!!

I am still questioning myself what I asked Menteri, was it the mishap of May ? Did I lose it back then ? Was it ...was it ?

I really aint sure. Blogger's wierd attitude is passing on to me, & that aint good. Bah!!! I need to get myself something to munch!!


I have to start to re-think my other priorities in life at this junction of my life. What is it that I realy want to achieve now, this year, the year after next and the for the next few years. What do I want to look back to when I reach the big 30...

I am going to turn 25 quite soon...

I have to take big steps with the big plans that I have set forth for myself.

I must not forget the oath of undertaking that I had promised to the Federation, as well as the responsibility that has come upon my shoulder which has been passed on by the old man.

I really need to relook what I am going tru' & what I really want.

I do not want to make a fool of myself aimlessly no more like how I just discovered.

Its about me now, no one else...or issit ??


Now now...

Please be reminded that you are to proceed with caution, extreme caution. Be careful and remember that you have just recently recovered from depression. You came to terms with it & overcame it, now dont allow yourself to be swallowed wholly by the other 'D'.

Just make sure you dont get sucked into the zone where you are in Despair.

For I have been shaken abit, and I was definitely in despair.




You're beautiful...

There are many moments that we had shared together that I cannot forget. & it was you who pushed me to go for the things that I do not want to regret...

For I do not want to be to late...



They say...

"A decent bloke cant possibly be single.
(let alone a good looking & well mannered guy)
Its either he is married/attached Or he is gay..."

Yet they also say...

"All the good ones go for the bad guys..."

& I've had quite a number of peeps who have agreed with both quotations, though I have been unable to track down the source and actual phrasing of the above mentioned. How apparent can the irony be right ?

? So where do I fit in ?


I smelt something good today. It wasnt though any wonderful aroma coming from my kitchen. Nor was it from any other kitchen nearby. It wasnt even aroma. It was surprisingly the fresh scent of the ground that was anticipating rain. Yesh, that very very fresh and electrifying feeling just before the rain poured just now. I could sense it this afternoon. It was wonderfully delirious. The amazing scent returned slightly before maghrib as the clouds closed shop for the day (",)

Something so small that would normally pass us by caught my attention today.
Just a great scent to brighten up an otherwise dark and gloomy Saturday.

Anyway the full list of activites is spoiling me with choices. Priority though will always take precedent amongst the list.

Hmmm...

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I want to take this oppurtunity to wish my dear friend since 99, ms.salad queen or otherwise known as ruzmidah a very happy happy 25th birthday. My dear friend, for all the hardship and pains you have toiled, you have turned out a better person. I am sure of that.

I hope the 2 simple malay idioms I passed to you would come in handy aites ;)

• "Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih"
• "Bila buang air, jangan dipandang"

Oh of course to Tien Hartika too, since you share the same birthday as salad queen. hehe. Doubt you read this though. Or does she ms.salad queen ??

Heh & I think I shared those 2 same idioms to LadyHackwrench too right ??
Hmmm...eh bila nak nak meet up at Simpang my Lady ;P


The important thing was not the rejection (righttt).
The important stuff was that it was done with proper conviction.
The attempt was made.

I have no idea if she had read the previous post before the call.
No idea what so ever if she even reads regularly, although the question about the partying did throw me off balance for a while there. Heh.

I knew from the start it would be either one.
A yesh or a no.
Cant possibly have any other answers,
cause any other thing except a yes equates into a simple rejection
(simple ? yet again righttt).

Oh wells...
she did mention though about a soya bean drink together when she is free
*grins*

oH & I think I got it pretty clear ?!?
that 2 wheels on a platter was no longer the meal of choice.
4 wheels on a platter then.
Aites. Time to get a working on the dream.

Anyways for those who have still missed out on a funny2 clip on pride in being 'Malay,' I highly recommend this site. Click --> here <-- Just watch it and let your funny bone tickle your toes. Hehe (",)

oh...the mighty ant & the bruised ego.
I think I am going for a climb now :)


Hey I am still up for grabs as of this timing...
still free for a date or anything.

now if only my eyecandy would read this within the next 6hours and act upon it. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;)


There is so much banter in my squeezed packed brain in this very instance.

It floats from one extreme to another as I am thinking and recollecting key events that had passed in the last 2 to 3 days. Alot has gone by and it has made so much of an impact on me that I am lagging behind in updates from my brain, that very fast, another key event rocks my calendar. One after the other, it all just shakes past me as vividly possible.

Saturday evening put me off in such a disturbing manner that I was afraid of what I had committed myself into. I was not prepared for what was going to happen. Alas, it was just plain old me and my too much thinking, negative thinking at that. For when midday Sunday arrived and the colourful array of red and batik, together with the unison of voices and the paluan coupled with the shiny blades and super slick moves, it just reminded me of my once past glory federation that was picking itself up again.

And as I saw my old mentor, all frail and unable to look out for himself as compared to how he had roughed up my batch and the batches before me, it truly saddened me deep inside my heart to see his current situation. It was especially deep the cuts when I saw an old man's tears roll down at the thought of how the foundations he had laid could be brought down to rubbles. That certainly re-instilled all the possible motions and notions which I as a young 10 year old back then had envisaged. It brought back the spark and the fire in me especially when the old birds of the federation still recognised me and keep on asking when I am donning back the proud red and batik.

That obviously led to the old man giving me a prep talk. It actually made me think alot, what he said. I felt that I had let the federation down, my dad down as for the past 7 near 8 years, my progress has been much slow as how it should have been running and accelerating. & yet when it came to crunch time, I just couldnt control my eyes and hands in the night time... How am I supposed to emulate the prior success of the old man. I truly question myself that alot in the past few days.

Even when I was at work Monday morning, I stared at my screen whenever possible and my mind just wanders and drifts to how I should be better. It was a little weird too, I must say on Monday afternoon when it started to rain heavily in Tuas. It literally brought distraught to my brain waves and surprisingly I couldnt catch the vibes that were sent out to me.

It was a strange and funny feeling. Something I just cant put to words. I was suppose to meet someone in town but the heavy downpour just around Jurong made me super duper drenched that I just headed home. A funny feeling that is just beyond words.

A few minutes at home and a call came in. News of my dear cousin, whom has led 30 years of a clean life, departing to meet her Creator. That very funny feeling of 'I knew there was some connection.' Yet I could not explain it.

The old man yet again used that small little time to rally information to me. He is seemingly passing his un-finished worldly 'businesses' to me. Telling me and letting me understand things from his eyes and how to complete it.

Bizarre, eerie yet it was a little surreal and a yet another weird type of unexplain feeling. Especially so since between Father and son. He was talking of the what ifs, if he wasnt around and what I was supposed to do with all the information and knowledge he has been slowly passing down for the past 7 to 8 years.

Really is an overload of information.

"...Syari'at tu kuat kan..."
Oh and at what non-perfect timing when I have plentiful to catch with fingers that werent being prepared properly though trained.

This hasnt even included when I had a small chat with my dad's friend at the wedding on Sunday. Through that small little chat, I was asked to drop my resume for an IT outsourcing company. For when it comes, it comes by the truckloads. So wasnt I already given enough time to prepare...of course I was, yet I had always chose the procrastinated road of mine.

I need to do the greatest juggling act now. With blades that are rusty which need to be un-sheathed immediately. I can no longer act and go to much with the flow. I need to be silky soft like a jellyfish yet I also need to stand my ground like the hardest of alloy that wont break.

I need my time...

Does all of this even make sense ??


In her own peaceful life where she has never hurt anyone. Her constant little movements that were akin to a child, just reminds us how young she truly was at heart. It also bears to serve as a gentle reminder as to how old we are and how much little time we have. & she has continued the journey into the next life, the Hereafter, which will prevail ever for eternity.

Al-fatihah.

To my dearest cousin, Rahema Binte Hussain.

For you have been loved.
& you have been blessed to live a clean life.

My condolonces go to Obek Neh & Cik Yam who have loved their baby daughter for the past 33years.

- Dari Allah telah kamu datang dan kepada Allah telah kamu kembali -


I was at Simpang late last night when LadyHackwrench sms-ed me, enquiring in a peculiar way if I was working today. When I replied I did, she was shocked that I was still out lepaking at Simpang at that hour. Timecheck - close to 1am. I assured her that this was very normal for me even on a working night.

Au contradiction and the mightiest irony for on a bluey bluey & bright sunny Monday, I sliced opened my eyelids to find the sun mightily up and shining. & as fast as you could pronounced Goooos-Fraaaa-Baaaah, I was myself up up and away dashing out of the house rushing to work in an avid attempt to not be late. But how could I right. How could I stop the sands of time that was trickling down the hourglass. I only gained consciousness at the dot of time that I would normally leave my humble abode. Yet I was only singing - no make that rapping like Eminem with such a glib tongue at that hour that even Chris Tucker would be proud of. My My.

Zoooom zooming down the PIE and what a horrendous jam and pile up of vehicles today. Extra snakey long of a queue and the ERP, not to mention 2 Uncle Sam in White that I came across. Woah!

Alhamdulilah I arrived at work only 20mins late but I was greeted with such a mighty gusto of emails from Friday and an even similar amount of work that was waiting in the shared folder. Gee! I really am tired of travelling to Tuas already.

So much for staying up till 3 + in the morning yesterday night.


Thats it. I just practically said goodbye to my saturday nights from now on. I just so have an issue with commitment and now, its goodbye saturday nights for good. Or at least the first half of saturday nights.

Its a scary scary word, COMMITMENT.

Resigned to fate of just sitting in a boring meeting room.

& yet when asked upon and given a choice...

What other choice did I have by the way right. Nanyang, Ayer Rajah or Eunos. Those were the only choices I had. I so wanted to say no because of my fear for commitment, and also due to me loving my free saturday nights. But my heart deep deep inside told me to make a choice and the most logical one.

What made my balls go the way it went with commitment this time ??
...if not for the loyalty & the love...

Speaking of balls... Where were my balls man yesterday night. Where was the courage needed to muster up a simple conversation. Where in my body did my balls go into hiding suddenly ? Shit! The only time I remember getting into a simple conversation with a girl I do not know and having any meaningful output of it was way in 2002. That was the last time I was single by the way. How long ago was that. Shit!
Read - meaningful output equates contact number.

Arh put a sock in it lah.

And stop making appointments/meet ups with me for Saturdays no more.
I wont be free from 5 to 11 no more.
Like anyone does anyway ;P


& so it was a befitting occassion for a wonderfully pulled together night. Surely a long long LONG night in the memories of us all. & my my how this will be a hot topic for our next simpang session. Haha. Had fun with all you guys and a great setup organised by our dear mr.teacher.

so let me wish an advanced happy birthday to mr.teacher once more. you are turning 25 dude. A moulder of the future. Got to take care definitely. Hah. Other then him, its an advanced goodbye to our mata sepet, Zul cheenaeyes. Haha. Go down under mate and make sure you come back with that degree. Ha.

I still cant think straight as I write this blog. Damn great night of memories, funny incidents and wonderful etches of brotherhood. We even had a mini reunion for the dear old sec1F guys. Amazingly we managed 5 out of 7.

Since 1995

mr.teacher(at the back), (from left)mat QC, me, sgt.hotstuff & mr.SIA
Now if we can only get anak yusoff and ping pong ball into the line up as well. It would be a perfect catch for our 10th anniversary of graduation next year. Gee!!! its been that long. heh :)

Okay lets not forget the rest of yesterdays's crew ya.

All the guys (this is a lousy picture. Bah!! I want N95 ;P hehe)


"main room"


mr.volleyball & me khekhekhe


faj(r&b gelek queen) & me. Haha


sista nurse & me


lutfi from SP MM 99 & abg chindian.


our justin timberlake in the spotlight.
& he tagged along mir mubarak on his t-shirt. hehe.


mr.teacher & cousin, the house mistress. Wahaha ;)


badboy sardine


face of being QC-ed. Wahaha.


Dont be fooled by the hair!!! Hes a genius, our mr.NUS


Just this 1 picture to summarise all the wastedness. Hah! the 2 wasted guys of the night. Im sure they must be trying hard to recollect the data of the past night. kwang3.




So...whats your plans for the 14th ??

I have been hearing the above question more & more now as the day approaches. And it has actually started to frustrate me a little, if not ALOT. Me being me definitely did not give a straight answer. The answer has been the same all along this year...

Q: So...whats your plans for the 14th ??
Me: The 14th ? I dont know. Still waiting for a girl to ask me out.
*lets out my normal hysterical laugh*

Surprisingly, I have been asked mostly from my colleagues. Just because I am the youngest male in the department, just because I am an eligble bachelor haha, just because they know I am un-attached, they had to ask me arh. Wait...do they know I am not attached ?? Anyway they were not taken aback so much from my answer. Hah. Maybe their immune to my type of jokes already ;P

Speaking of work...

Yesterday most of the office was in a frenzy due to a visit from our departments director's director, all the way from UK. Woah! Because she was around, the department camera appeared of course and there are pictures of my work place. (Just to re-cap that I am not allowed to bring in my handphone and/or camera or anything that can transfer sensitive data into my work place) So finally I have decent pictures of my workstation. Yipee ;) Ah have a look see of me acting busy.
Thats my immediate supervisor, Joe

Thats my co-supervisor, Mega

Check out the director being shown aroud whilst I was "busily" working.

By the way, I still aint sure what to do on 14th Feb. What day is it anyway, that day. Haha and Im waiting for ladies to ask me out for that day, still. Wahahahahahahaha ;P





Nothing-ness & no mood for updates at the moment.
Period.


Again...again & again!!!

Again mum, you have started to predict, calculate and prepare stuffs for me way beyond my control. I cant control all that you want mum. NO, I dont have a gf. No I am not going to get engaged anytime soon. No, I am not moving out of my room anytime soon. Please dont ask me to look for someone just for the sake of looking for someone.

It was probably a mistake to go into ur room early on just to find the papers, for those were the first words I heard from you today...

This definitely eclipses faizal's question at simpang yesterday, "Bila ko nak cari gf betul2?"

Just because the whole group of your are engaged or in long term relationships, doesnt mean I have to conform to it as well.

What a shitty feeling on a sunday morning.
& I suddenly remember that I am late for something now...


Mental Block

How do you want to bring a friendship into another level ?

...for I asked a certain somebody if she remembered our first movie date, sometime later in this month of last year...
...and what I got for an answer was, "...it was not a date la, pls =P"

Its giving me some sort of mental block since the 1st...
so how do I...

Mental Block ??


Yesh, It is finally DONE!!
I have managed to get the bugs out and I am proud to say I edited all the codes by myself. Yahoo!!

That done and out of the way, I can now concentrate on more concrete stuff in my life. Haha.
Check out the new desires :)
I want them all ;)

Okay I am mentally drained now. Will just surf around a lil while more.
No more brain draining activity for me tonight.

*grins from ear to ear*

And what a good way to start February 07.